I noticed I tend to feel restless on the days when I have scheduled appointments. Every time there's a fixed appointment in my calendar, I find it hard to relax on that day. Especially if the appointment is in the evening. I will walk all day long feeling tense, knowing my evening fun has been limited. To make it easier for myself, I've created a game: I set an alarm for 30 minutes before an appointment, and then I can feel free until the alarm rings. When it rings, I get "officially" restless - thankfully, only for 30 minutes. To be clear, I love my job (I work as an English teacher and a psychologist). When a session starts, I get immersed in the process and enjoy every bit of it. But it looks like I do something (or hold something as true) during the waiting time, which is the reason why I get restless! Has anybody struggled with a similar pattern, and if so, what's helped you?

Hey guys, So I had a hit on something today while I was playing my guitar by the pond. I think I heard Peter mention somewhere something about keeping his "self" out of an activity, (although if I remember correctly, it was in reference to writing a book, so take that how you may if it's any different or how it is.) But what I'm trying to move towards is the art of "giving being" or "lending being" to some sort of activity or process. That is, really showing up, being present there for that, being present, fully. When the mind goes down those "crooked" little self inflicting modes of trying to "manipulate," or lie, or just the "small place" in general, the attention is divided in a sense, and you don't fully participate in the activity. It seems you don't really show up powerfully, for that activity or really anything for that matter. Because you're not just engaging in and doing the thing, you're doing "something else," and using that activity as a vehicle or "weapon," or even just having divided attention, trying to do the activity and "something else" as well, so it doesn't seem to fully have your participation. It seems when you can drop that fully, you really show up and are present by nature. And probably make much better art. Or relate more effectively. Not to mention just abiding in this state is very rewarding in and of itself. The mind feels more authentic and creative, and it opens up the possibility to live more from this state, as well as apply it, or really I should say yourself, to other things, without so much "self" and can be more authentic, creative, and free from that dynamic. Seems to beat the alternative

So i'm new in this work, I have many questions, but it feels like answers won't help from others, I'm having hard time writing this, because I want to clear my confusion with the answers I get, but this whole conflict of not-knowing what to do is also happening in mind, sooo, does anyone have some possibilities to share what to do with this constant conflict in my head, it's like i've had insight or I don't know what it was, but at that moment I was hyper aware how my mind was somethig that was happening without any control, like it was something seperate from my being, from that point I want to believe that mind is something i can completly ignore, but who is the one who tries to ignore it , and by continuesly having conflict like this and wanting to reach this state of seeing my mind like i saw in that moment is getting in my way of doing it, idk

Thanks to @Viktor Balogh and everyone's contributions in yesterday's weekly session, I felt free from one of my core assumptions about life: 'This life is the only life I have, and I mustn't waste it.' I've had this one since childhood. I realise how some of my core suffering has stemmed from it. I've pressed myself to do something great, to sacrifice my life for a greater cause, etc. I realise I still can carry on with the work I consider meaningful, but simply because I find it joyful, and that's it. And it dawned on me: Life Can't Be Wasted. Wasting life is impossible! What I thought of as Life before is a great Something that is ever-continuing, ever-flowing. It is Real and ever-present and a mystery that sustains itself irrespective of what I happen to assume about it. Great session yesterday! Thanks, everyone.

Was listening to @Brendan Lea reflecting on some of the most common assumptions he noticed people hold during workshops. I put those into a checklist and thought it might be useful to share it here. 1. I'm over here; you're over there. 2. Emotions are caused by external circumstances. 3. I AM my emotions. If you're threatening my emotions, you're threatening ME. 4. Considering the world from a psychological perspective. When I view some behaviour, it is based in psychology (caused by trauma, past, need for a healing process, etc.) 5. We are all one. I am consciousness, and I am everything. 6. Scientific assumptions. DNA as God. 7. (about spiritual paths) All roads lead to the same place. Episode link: https://youtu.be/Dz64pd_pGPE?si=NtUh2JT9fVm2HSW9 I catch myself holding some of these assumptions, so it was helpful to hear Brendan and his co-host articulate them so I could see them more clearly.