One day, when I was a teenager, I caught myself creating a self. I was sitting in a balcony in my flat in Kyiv when it suddenly hit me that I had to take on some personal qualities to become 'a someone'. I didn't know WHY I had to be that particular someone. Everybody seemed to be doing it - and the only alternative to that was "being noone", and I didn't want that. The curious part was, deep down, I didn't feel like any of the qualities I could assume would describe me truthfully. I knew that every quality would be a lie or an act, but I had to do that anyway, because it was the only game in town. I wasn't conscious back then of the real reasons why I was doing it. I didn't question who I really was at that point. Today I was contemplating "Why did I feel compelled to create and maintain a sense of being a particular self in the first place?", and this memory came up. So I decided to share it because I thought it was interesting.

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„You can‘t explain consciousness.“

Conceptual Action Exercise. Don’t think about it. Just have fun and feel the change in your experience😊 Put your attention on experience. Put your attention on Now. Feel the ground an experience the entire space of a room. Put your attention on objects. Physical reality. Objective reality. Desk. Chair. Window. Door etc. Stay there. Imagine every object desk, chair, window, door are made from extremely tiny marbles, like molecules in space. Imagine every molecule of everything in the room, physics tell us everything is made of trillions and trillions of atoms bound together in space with spaces between each tiny marble. Imagine this now as your physical reality. Shift your mind to experiencing physical reality and objects as trillions of atoms bound together in infinitely different ways. The desk, chair, window, door. Don’t think about it. Just do it. Good. Now feel your body. Experience your body. Just go there. Breathe. Put your attention on the centre of your body. Close your eyes. Imagine every molecule of your body. Biology tells us bodies are all made of trillions and trillions of cells bound together to form tissues, organs, organism. Feel your whole body. Now open your eyes and keep feeling every cell and molecule and tissues of your body. Feel your whole body all at once. Feel all the objects of molecules in your room as trillions and trillions of atoms and feel every molecule of your body as trillions of cells. Feel your whole body. Do this now. Breathe. Open your eyes. Feel the space all around your body. Maybe move around. Feel the ground. Don’t think. Just experience physical reality and your body. If a thought arises, watch it come and go like cloud of dust. Like it never happened. Just like air molecules in space. Keep focusing on objects around your room and your physical body. Keep focusing on all the molecules, atoms and cells of the entire room. Keep your attention on physical reality. Keep your attention on objects. Get the space all around you. Feel every molecule of air in the room. Get the huge amount of air molecules filling the room, connect to them all, every corner, every side, up and down, and all around. Feel the space and air molecules all around you. Move around slowly, taking various shapes and doing various movements.

I've decided on my Halloween costume. I will go as the Self 😅🎃🧟