After the EUS workshop: 1. The first thing I got was; waking up the next day with โI am responsibleโ. It was an insight into my problem of โnot being able to chooseโ. That problem disappeared. The instruction I then gave myself, โto always contemplate from not knowingโ opened up the possibility to be active; walk and think without letting that activity distract me from my contemplation. I realized that my body had never distracted me from having an insight or a breakthrough before, so why would my mind distract me? Itโs just there. Itโs happening as by itself, while there is room for not knowing what its is. That was a cool thought that helped me a lot. 2. Then I came across the concept of โopen waitingโ and at a certain point the โmeโ disappeared completely. It became clear, by an apparent deep relaxation of the body that there was no one here. That it was complete and absolute immediately, and that it can never be an experience because it already is as it is. It was a โjezus-f**king-hellโ moment lol. A lot of the ideas, sentences, reminders or explanations I had been reading/ hearing about make sense. Like that โthere is no procesโ, or that โstuff is not realโ this whole โconsciousness babbleโ that was always interesting to me, but would never bring me into this. Duh..Of course everything is referenced to me! It IS me.โ The โmeโ story shows up as a contraction in the body, always trying to know, to figure out, to have an answer. It is endles, always 'going' somewhere lol and I could call it in itself โsufferingโ because it is always looking for something else. At the moment it seems silly to dive deeper into the stuff I am NOT conscious of what it is, but not resisting it either. Hanging out. โOpen waitingโ is a good description. Letโs see where this goes. Thanks Brendan for the facilitation, Peter for the materials and participants for their sharing! Guido