I attach to people and things. I become emotionally invested, have fears about being without them and not feeling whole. I am grieving a relationship. We still live together right now which is needed for my financial safety. We lived together as girlfriend and boyfriend for about a year. I keep walking in on him watching porn and he has been speaking to me very condescending and in degrading ways. He used to do this when we were together too. I have really had a lot of love for him even when I’ve had to place really strong boundaries or when I fought in the relationship to express to him how the way he was treating me was hurting me. He just totally disconnects, is passive aggressive and very disruptive, stomping, making noise, ignoring and making co-habituating difficult. I am looking for some perspective to help me let go but also help me cultivate compassion for him and a broader understanding. Something that can really open my heart to just let him be and be truly warm towards myself and him right now. I feel deeply that perspective could help me find peace.

Live in the moment you don't owe no one just gotta show love to make these moves so futuristic just like you were supposed to. So elevate yourself from the mess cause the lesson's louder, from where we came we can capture some tactics that make us faster. On our feet because we have to. See, sittin down would be bad so can't deal with that on my mental. My mental is metal, since I was little I lived through too much to handle, but came through outside this man right before you so understand if you couldn't, or wouldn't. It wouldn't matter I'd answer that with some laughter. See, the madder I get I backpack it N get it together n weather this all forever n ever n never give in to struggle till I'm breaking bread with winners n sinners come up with nothing. I'm hunting till I've exhausted my options or until I've departed from this world into another until then I'll be with my brothers. Known better as those who are humble while others shatter they don't.