Loom video on this. This is a message to you and me in a way. Stop overthinking small mistakes. Of you go to bed past your bed time one night and you accept it is not ideal, that is okay. That is fine. Of you miss a crucial habit such as healing your trauma and as long as you can be honest with yourself that it is not your best behavior and you will do better next time. That is fine. The reason why your mind / monkey mind always sweats the small stuff is cause that is how it was wired, cause back let’s say 1000 years it was productive that our mind was always searching for the next problem. But now that is not so useful… And it leads to us thinking things that are really no problems at all our the end of the world, that is why it is crucial to know this, cause it help you understand your “monkey mind” more. Also a recommended read of you are interested in looking more into the monkey mind, is the book “The Subtle Art Of Not Giving A F***” this is an excellent book.

This post will be a little long, i hope you'll understand what i wrote, english is not my first language 🙃. I see that a lot of people, including myself, judge ourselves everytime, for many things that we did or not, especially when we make mistakes. I've been struggling with this all my life, but recently, after many years of suffering (because i was very harsh with myself), i had a revelation, i started seeing everything, everyone and myself, from a completely different perspective, specifically God's perspective, i naturally begin to feel better, to see how actually loved i am, and the most important thing was that i finally started to love myself and stoped judging me so much. And i changed: from rotting in bed and watching reels/tiktok 24/7 believing that i am a failure and can't do a thing, to starting doing chores, making to-do lists, going outside, change the relationship with my family, no more trying to force things just because i want to and so on. I'm sure some of you still experience this internal pain of judging yourself and want to free from it, but don't force it, you are already there just because you wish to. Don't let yourself feel ashamed of who you are or who you're not, we are literally the same thing, humans :), but written in different fonts, your imperfections are perfect. If you think that there is something you don't like about yourself, try to overcome your MINDS urge to instantly judge and to not feel anything at the moment, it's ok if you don't like something about you, you can change it :), just chill, i know it's hard, but try everyday for at least 5 minutes to see yourself and everyone else around you through God's eyes: God doesn't judge, He listens, to all of us, even when we don't believe He does and loves us unconditionally. So, if God doesn't judge, why should you? It's ironic, but we usually are kind with others more than we are with ourselves :). To end this long essay 🙃, i want to share a song that is very dear to me, my mom dedicated it to me :), the song's name is "vino aici" by Zoia Alecu, it's in romanian, i put the link at the end with the lyrics in english. I share it because i love the lyrics, it really helped me to let myself in God's hands, and maybe it can help you too🌞