Hello everyone, just sharing my situation to see if someome had some similar experiences.. 1 yr ago my girlfriend left me. I'm still broken and I can not go over It. I know she s with someone else and I ve Daily intrusive images and thoughts about her with him. I also had some other experiences but I still can not go ahead. My body and my mind are still "with" her.

My video on this. Did you think of you hit $10k a month in your business you would be happy? Maybe of you got your dream body and etc. Maybe you got those things but you are still unhappy, there are two reasons why that stuff will never make you happy / fulfil you, let me explain. 1. Hedonic adaptation, basically people think materialistic stuff like what car we drive, what clothes we wear and etc, business monthly recurring revenue or whatever, we think this will give us happiness, while that is true to an extent it is not really, cause we get used to this stuff, research shows, these things give us a temporary happiness boost for a week or two but then after we dip down to what it was before, so this is a big reason why. 2. Unhealed trauma, this is the biggest one I always have and always will say you need to fix the deeper core / root problem before you do anything else, and this is true with your happiness, unhealed trauma is the biggest reason people stay unhappy. So your action steps are to understand hedonic adaptation, and start healing your trauma today, with my simple guide: To heal your trauma, first of all bring up the past unprocessed emotion then act on what your brain tells you even of it says cry or whatever, do it but maybe make sure you are alone for this, and sometimes people do not know what to do in that case do a generic method like shaking, breath work, cold exposure or whatever and that will work.

I find myself incredibly sexually attracted to men and completely repulsed by the vagina. Conversely I find myself drawn to strong women and repulsed by men when it comes to other qualities that have to do with the ego or personality. I am very sexually confused...it's eluded me all my life. I've been taking the tantric path to try and pinpoint when and at what point I get aroused. What should I do so that my desires don't overtake me...or take me down a dark road?

So for a lil context , i might be a lot stupid and ask such stupid question forgive me ,so im 20 yrs old and i came to know about spirituality and then got a lot involved thru a guy i used to date ,thay went really horrible for me ,evrytime as i used to save my relationship when it was falling apart he would constantly say its just your ego , u do not want this, but clearly since long the one thing i craved for and wished to hve was a loving genuine partner and have a small family with them, but is that my ego? Shld i not crave for it?is it wrong? I mean most of the spirituality guru s who i used to follow were telling evrything is about ego and ull gain ntg from it .. which i kinda agree.. but can anyone explain me. Is wishing for a spouse really is a bad thing? And since im young i thought this new year will bring me a lot of productive side of me since last year drained me in evry way possible this new year i would work physically, mentally,spiritually and also start a heavy grind for my career ,i mean since breakup i hve been reaching very good heights in my career, is this all ego too?

So, I really need ur opinion on this. The more I listen to different spiritual teachers, the more I develop this fear that all of this is just a big scam, and it’s hard for me to continue my spiritual journey, even though I really want to. Cause most of spiritual teachers wants you to pay money for the knowledge they offer, and on one hand, we live in material world, they exchange valuable information, so it’s absolutely logical that these knowledge is worth paying for. But on the other hand, how to get rid of the thought that it’s just a big scam? And how do you guys understand if something is trustworthy?