(Don’t want to read? Scroll to the bottom to watch my video on this) I used to believe I was special, I remember the days I would be in school, and the teachers would tell us we are all special and unique, and I believed that, also as I walked down the corridors or whatever, posters would be up telling us we are all special. While it is a nice and “cute” thing to believe. It is not true, and I do honestly wish I had of learned this sooner. Why? Because before I found out the truth, I had a real bad victim mentality, I would not take accountability for anything, no responsibility. I thought I should be treated better than others, since I am so “unique.” This held me back big time. And honestly, the only reason I know of this is because when I started coaching other people, I hopped on calls, people would tell me their problems, and by this point I have done well over 100 of these calls. And I seen the patterns over and over again, the same problems, again and again. And it even makes sense for healing too, so many people think their poor childhood experiences for example, are very unique and special. Honestly they are not. But that being said, that does not make it easier to deal with it, but I say it to make you feel bad but to motivate you, cause of other people have achieved what you have done, why not you? Thank you for reading, and I hope this was valuable.

In the exploration of trauma and inner healing, there are approaches that stand out because of their simplicity and directness. One such perspective is the work of Gopal, who describes trauma not as a complex web of endless individual stories, but as something that can be reduced to two fundamental relational patterns. These are referred to as the autonomy structure and the fusion structure. The autonomy structure expresses itself as a movement toward distance, independence, and self-protection. It is characterized by the need to withdraw, to maintain space, and to avoid being overwhelmed by closeness. The fusion structure, on the other hand, moves toward connection, closeness, and emotional merging. It is marked by the desire for contact, reassurance, and the fear of separation. What is striking about this view is how clearly these two movements can be observed in everyday life. Human interaction, emotional reactions, and even subtle inner impulses often seem to oscillate between these two poles — either moving toward the other or moving away. In this sense, the model offers a very practical lens through which internal dynamics can be recognized without getting lost in excessive interpretation. At the same time, when looking at this more deeply, a question naturally arises. If these two patterns describe how trauma expresses itself, what is the underlying ground from which these movements emerge? What is it that gives rise to this constant oscillation between closeness and distance? From a more spiritual perspective, it can be considered that these patterns do not represent the root cause, but rather the structure of a system that has already lost its original orientation. In this view, trauma is not only a result of external events or psychological imprinting, but also connected to a more fundamental inner condition — a state of separation. This separation is not necessarily meant in a purely interpersonal sense, but in a deeper, existential way. It can be understood as a disconnection from the source of being, from what could be called the Divine, or God. When this connection is not consciously lived or experienced, the human system seems to compensate by organizing reality through the mechanisms of the mind.

they say that 17 april is very important astologycially and its my birthday but i feel so frustrated and tired. is it only me or you guys feel that too?

So happy to be here to connect to my people 🙂💞. Loved the introduction video by Ray, love your sense of humor 😀. The video remind me about Osho who was totally rebellious mystic. I have a very strong other life connection to him. My life was a challenging journey. I grew up in a very strict, conventional family in former Soviet Union. Life and people didn’t make any sense to me, I felt old even I was young, I couldn’t wait until it’s over. One day my coworker gave me a Seth book. It was totally unexpected, but I was ready. Even I didn’t know anything about spirituality, those books made total sense to me, I just knew it was true. I never looked back, went through many teachings, mostly channelers. Professionally I was an engineer and then a computer programmer. I left my corporate job at the beginning of Covid. I became a movement teacher and a life couch. I don’t really follow anybody anymore, my intentions is to find my answer inside, follow my inner guidance, embody the teachings. I am longing for genuine connection and community. Looking forward to find it here 💞

Since I completed my healing and fully awakened (it’s been about a month), I have really been struggling with inflammation. I’m learning to better manage it with minerals and crown chakra meditation, but it’s rough. This high vibration is incredible, but I think it just saps my energy because it’s so much more than I was accustomed to my whole life. It basically feels like a head cold. Has anyone else dealt with this? If so, what did you find helpful?