I haven’t been happy for one minute in my entire life. I push everyone away because they don’t deserve to be miserable like me. I am such an abortion. It’s insane how not a day goes by when I wish I hadn’t been born. All my teachers and bullies and antagonizers were right all along. I was never a good person. I totally overestimated my ability to believe the BS that I could be worth a damn in this beautiful world. Everyone has had enough of my nonsense, including myself. Happy new year.