Hey Mystiks! It's been a while since we celebrated what we are working through! I'd love to hear a recent win or breakthrough in the comments!👇 🎊 Let's celebrate one another for winning unseen battles and breaking through any illusions- especially as we are in the middle of 3 retrogrades! 🧚‍♀️ I'll go first... 2 months ago, I started a course, "Decode the Masculine," with a coach I really admire. After my breakup in the summer, I wanted to check in and see where my blind spots lie in relation to partnership. After my personal coaching session and other moments in the community. I was confirmed that I have been working diligently in my masculine and am not self-sabotaging. One thing I did have to fix was where I was resourcing my energy from. I noticed that I wanted to prove to my father, my family (myself) that I can make it as an entrepreneur and artist. Unfortunately, that is not sustainable, and now I have to be very mindful of where I get my inspiration/motivation from. I realized, I have nothing to prove to anyone (not even myself)- my service and craft are based on devotion to the divine. Truly, I am so abundant with my many lived experiences and freedom. Things other people dream of having. So much more I can say, and I will be exploring more while integrating in our upcoming 7-Day Shadow Work Challenge. 🖤 ➡️ JOIN US, we start Dec. 4th! Communion II: 7-Day Shadow Work Challenge $108 Suggested donation, no one will be turned away due to the lack of funds. This challenge is devotional, gentle, and powerful. If your heart feels the pull — honor it. I look forward to hearing your wins! P.S. See you at the SDM call on Wednesday!

In less than a week, I will be off on a new adventure down south. It’s been 2.5 years since I lived in Mexico. These years back in Cali have been transformational - I have taken some of the biggest risks of my life. I made a very large investment, which helped my business grow with The Mysterium. I dated and risked heartbreak again. As a traveler in this life, it feels like I am constantly starting over. Cleaning one space to move to another. It has not been easy nor glamorous. Contrary to what some may believe, not being rooted has brought me a lot of anguish. This isn’t about 'woe is me,' but about being vulnerable about the realities of our own perception. This year brought me to my knees, asking for mercy and grace as I understand my purpose on this earth more deeply. And yet… I still show up. I still make room for my dreams and desires. I still break through to the other side. This is what authentic living is! It’s not about society, it’s not about a general timeline. It’s how the soul wants to express itself HERE AND NOW. & I am grateful. 🗣️ Let's get real on today's community call! Bring your wins, breakthroughs, and burdens, and let's get spooky! 👻 See you at 5 pm PST | 8 pm EST. Link in calendar! *All Recordings are in the classroom!

Today I was told to write something. Two years ago I lost 2 of my best friends. Lindsey was special. I met her in a time when I was sort of experiencing life for the first time on my own. We would go on adventures. She showed me where to find light through the darkness. She taught me how to sing from my heart. She made fun of me when I would do something stupid like chew on a piece of grass like those kids in the cartoons out in the country. We spent hours watching Cowboy Bebop, an anime about futuristic space bounty hunters all to the theme of jazz. We would take her dog Luna on walks through alleys and waterways- places most people wouldn't go. We explored basements of random buildings and tried to make it to the top of tall buildings. We went everywhere together- in joy and in sorrow. She cried in front of me and opened her soul.. I had never felt more alive. She left without saying goodbye.. but i saw her again and it was amazing seeing her but we were both different. I had new traumas and so did she. We recognized them im eachother- atleast I did in her. Unfortunately that was the last I saw her. Anna was special. I can still hear her laugh. I can still feel her radiant and wonderous spirit. We made our traumas into pins which we stuck on our lapels only to be removed in metaphorical games of sword fights. Of course we never actually fought. In all reality ive never felt the same level of safety and security in the presence of another soul. She offered me a home although I was always insistent on finding my own way. We watched a cure for wellness. A film drenched in mystery and melancholy. Not unlike our lives. We slowly watched eachother spiral in the beautiful dangerous unknown. We made plans to reunite. Unfortunately we never had the chance... actually we did. Once she died, her spirit projected a part of itself into my dreams. I was under a blanket laying across from her. Ive never experienced a more magical smile. I still reach for her sometimes. They both live within me. Through laughs and tears we experience new wonders together- new adventures. We look at the world with anticipation and together we unclench our fists and smile into the darkness.

This year has been a difficult one for many of us. From transitions in career, relationships, to losses and political chaos. One way or another, the collective is going through a shift. I have spoken about my personal heartbreak this year during some of our calls, and since we are now out of Eclipse energy, I feel I am ready to share some deep insights that have helped me in my healing process, which has led me to a new perspective in life. First, I want to share that we just entered into the Fall Equinox, which marks the nine nights of Durga Devi, Navaratri! From Sept. 22nd to Oct. 2nd. The energy of the Dark Goddess allows us to move through the different forms and blessings these nights hold. Biggest takeaways from unrequited love: 1️⃣ Not everyone can hold what you hold. Some people may have good intentions and theoretically want to hold a container of devotion, but they are unable to actualize that in real time. Others are manipulative, so give space to see someone’s real capacity. 2️⃣ Give time for commitment. In the beginning stages, confrontation and disagreement is a telling point to see if this person’s conflict management style is compatible with yours. For example, someone can show up wholeheartedly, but once uncomfortable or in an uneasy situation, they show where they are unhealed or unwilling to go to meet you in those shadow areas. 3️⃣ Be honest and authentic. By stating your truth and showing up authentically, it allows someone to know you fully and see if they can truly handle you, or if it’s too much. It’s better to find out earlier than later. 4️⃣ The past is the past for a reason. Although we learn from our past relationships, there is no reason to bring up names, details, etc. This helps to start a clean slate and to stop any projections. If you need to express personal issues, you do so with a close confidante or trusted leader. 5️⃣ Soothe and regulate your nervous system. Relationships are mirrors to some of our most ideal and also shadow selves. It is easy to be triggered by the actions of another. If you need to share and state boundaries, you must do so with a grounded nervous system. What could be an honest need can be looked at as an insecurity depending on how it is delivered. Have tough conversations when you feel full, not empty or enraged.

This past week, I have been in an inner search for my center after having a few things come up with the dark moon ~ new moon ~ Retrograde Saturn, and Mercury. I have found myself in a new relationship that had been going steady for 3 months, no major hiccups until one week ago. A tough conversation that triggered both my disorganized and his avoidant attachment styles. I found myself at a distance not from him but from myself. Emotions arose from abandonment and rejection, assumptions, because of the call for a pause. I let myself be open to then find myself having to deeply self-soothe. Not the 35-year-old but the 17-year-old. I was brought back to the memory of my first love. I had no idea who I was then; I had no idea that I was a highly sensitive empath. I didn’t know how to process being heartbroken at the time. So, I slept and I ate only one meal a day for several months. I found myself thin, sick, and totally out of harmony. The emotions this week reminded me of this period of suppression. I cried, feeling hopeless. I searched within to find solace. I called on my support systems of friends and mentors. Today, I felt a calm realization come through… This purge, This storm, This release... It's more than just a heartbreak. It’s grief and mourning for my teacher, for my old communities. For the past that I have had to walk away from. I feel comfortable sharing more as I continue to heal the shadows that arose. Sharing this breakthrough, I am currently in the midst of with this group, because this is the dance of the shadow. This is why I created this community because I want there to be a space for healers and artists to unravel themselves and find support in whatever process they find themselves in. Living in the States these past 2.5 Years has brought me to some of my highest peaks and lowest valleys. From business movement to personal relationships that have ended or transformed. ✨ As healers, we must build our lifestyles to honor not only the service we give to others but the space we need to integrate our own shadow and light dance.