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New Moon Reflections

Today I was told to write something.

Two years ago I lost 2 of my best friends.

Lindsey was special. I met her in a time when I was sort of experiencing life for the first time on my own. We would go on adventures. She showed me where to find light through the darkness. She taught me how to sing from my heart. She made fun of me when I would do something stupid like chew on a piece of grass like those kids in the cartoons out in the country. We spent hours watching Cowboy Bebop, an anime about futuristic space bounty hunters all to the theme of jazz. We would take her dog Luna on walks through alleys and waterways- places most people wouldn't go. We explored basements of random buildings and tried to make it to the top of tall buildings. We went everywhere together- in joy and in sorrow. She cried in front of me and opened her soul.. I had never felt more alive.

She left without saying goodbye.. but i saw her again and it was amazing seeing her but we were both different. I had new traumas and so did she. We recognized them im eachother- atleast I did in her. Unfortunately that was the last I saw her.

Anna was special. I can still hear her laugh. I can still feel her radiant and wonderous spirit. We made our traumas into pins which we stuck on our lapels only to be removed in metaphorical games of sword fights. Of course we never actually fought. In all reality ive never felt the same level of safety and security in the presence of another soul.

She offered me a home although I was always insistent on finding my own way. We watched a cure for wellness. A film drenched in mystery and melancholy. Not unlike our lives. We slowly watched eachother spiral in the beautiful dangerous unknown. We made plans to reunite. Unfortunately we never had the chance... actually we did. Once she died, her spirit projected a part of itself into my dreams. I was under a blanket laying across from her. Ive never experienced a more magical smile. I still reach for her sometimes.

They both live within me. Through laughs and tears we experience new wonders together- new adventures. We look at the world with anticipation and together we unclench our fists and smile into the darkness.

I love you Lindsey.

I love you Anna.

I love all my friends ive lost throughout the years. Your impact on me and the rest of the world will never be forgotten.

Thank you.

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