Teenage Self-Reflection - Moonday breakthroughs ⚡

This past week, I have been in an inner search for my center after having a few things come up with the dark moon ~ new moon ~ Retrograde Saturn, and Mercury.

I have found myself in a new relationship that had been going steady for 3 months, no major hiccups until one week ago. A tough conversation that triggered both my disorganized and his avoidant attachment styles.

I found myself at a distance not from him but from myself. Emotions arose from abandonment and rejection, assumptions, because of the call for a pause.

I let myself be open to then find myself having to deeply self-soothe. Not the 35-year-old but the 17-year-old.

I was brought back to the memory of my first love. I had no idea who I was then; I had no idea that I was a highly sensitive empath. I didn’t know how to process being heartbroken at the time. So, I slept and I ate only one meal a day for several months.

I found myself thin, sick, and totally out of harmony.

The emotions this week reminded me of this period of suppression. I cried, feeling hopeless. I searched within to find solace. I called on my support systems of friends and mentors.

Today, I felt a calm realization come through…

This purge,

This storm,

This release...

It's more than just a heartbreak. It’s grief and mourning for my teacher, for my old communities. For the past that I have had to walk away from.

I feel comfortable sharing more as I continue to heal the shadows that arose. Sharing this breakthrough, I am currently in the midst of with this group, because this is the dance of the shadow.

This is why I created this community because I want there to be a space for healers and artists to unravel themselves and find support in whatever process they find themselves in.

Living in the States these past 2.5 Years has brought me to some of my highest peaks and lowest valleys. From business movement to personal relationships that have ended or transformed.

✨ As healers, we must build our lifestyles to honor not only the service we give to others but the space we need to integrate our own shadow and light dance.

✨ As artists, we must allow for space to create our projects that align with our inner processes.

Reflection is key to both paths and integration to become our authentic selves.

➡️ This Wednesday, come to our Monthly Community Call. Bring your wisdom, your reflections, and open hearts to give and receive what you need at this time.

I would love to hear what’s on your heart and mind. COMMENT BELOW! 👇

Sending love,

Deanna

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