warning: MAJOR yap session ahead: well brothers, i must say that it’s been a crazy ride for me. i’ve been progressing great, moving far from who i was a few years. but i have to be transparent, i don’t feel like it. in my religion, it’s customary for 18 year old men to serve a two year proselyting mission. i turn 19 in march and haven’t left yet because i was suffering through some mental stuff. i didn’t know if i wanted to go, and more importantly i was mentally breaking down almost every day. i could barely get out of bed some days, and i struggled HARD. every mistake i made, and id choose to spiral. to be honest, my self esteem and image was at an all time low. and also… i hadn’t left because well, i was hoping to try fixing the relationship with my family. now i turn 19 in march. i haven’t left yet, and while im almost finished, and ill have my paperwork submitted in a few weeks, its likely i won’t leave until may or even later. and honestly while im trying not to spiral, and thankfully i haven’t suffered any major panic attacks or spirals for a long time, im still angry and stressed at myself. im an ambitious person. i have dreams for my future. i want to become a business owner and a creative architect. i’m an artist. im a writer. i’m a fighter. i write stories, i play and write music, and i have an artistic and creative vision for what i want to make in the future. i have scenes, aesthetics, cultures, and a vision for the types of films i want to design in the future. i’m a music producer and a singer putting together an artist portfolio. i love music, and want to integrate it as part of my life too. to deal with stress i train to lift weights. i eat healthy, work out, and practice muay thai and spar. i take cold showers and meditate. and the thing is, while i have vision and ambition, im just a lazy dreamer without the proper dedication, knowledge and discipline to place it. it’s why im majoring in entrepreneurship in college when i get back, and also i know that the skills and discipline learned from a mission can place me on that path.

Today is Saturday. The start of the weekend. The time when everybody else takes their foot off the gas to "recharge their batteries" and slack off. But if you're someone who's in pursuit of massive goals in life... I'd advise against doing the same. Saturday and Sunday are 2 of the 7 days you have every week to make progress toward your goals. That's close to 30% of your week. How much further ahead could you be if you used these days as an opportunity to widen the gap between yourself and everybody else? How much more skilled could you become? How many more reps could you take? How much more could you accomplish? Understand that time is an extremely valuable asset... One you need to make the most of if you truly want to build the life you say you do. If you willingly choose to piss away 30% of the that time... What makes you think your goals will even be possible for you? It's an arrogant thought. Every weekend is an opportunity. Take it seriously. Very few people can compete with the one who shows up and executes every single day. That could be you. The choice is yours to make. ~ Andy Frisella