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Venting

Hey Guy!

Me and Tasha have a great Co-Parenting relationship. Her not having a father growing up, and me having to go through court for my eldest. We just see eye to eye on that aspect... Ironically. its a perfect relationship!

regardless, it means we spend quite a bit of time together with the kids, especially recently with Our eldest going into Primary soon, we have been to several induction days... I digress.

We often take picture with the kids, or even outside of that she always make comments about her appearance. The most common being "I look so fat on that" and variations of this!

Now being truly honest! I think she is the most beautiful woman on this planet. I truly Do. it has always bothered me in the relationship. positionally even my reaction to this now i am writing this post. could be a factor of the split. I digress again!

Whenever she makes these comments i respond with;

"I wish you would stop saying that about yourself, you're gorgeous"

"i wish you could see yourself through my eyes"

" You're beautiful, don't be so harsh on yourself"

You get the gist....

however, now we are not together. although i truly mean it! i feel like it is wrong... she pulls faces as if to say 'yeah right' or 'you're just saying that' and its in way making me feel uncomfortable. like its making the gap between us bigger! like she feels i am just being .. manipulative in a way. Maybe i am reading to much into it i don't know.

I have even now changed the way i talk to her, we went to the cinemas the other day its warm.... i was in joggers so i was comfy. i showed up and she was in this black dress!... like.. wow! In me Head i instantly thought "You're i so beautiful" then... "why did you fuck this up" hahah

But i just turned to her and said "Oh, You didn't tell me there was a dress code"...

There is this part of me now! where i just feel like i cannot be my self around her, and be honest about what is on my mind! which is annoying because i value my honesty....

maybe this is of the back of last week when i acted on my feelings, and i took things too far. and now i am just being reserved. i don't know....

I have also noticed there is a few things i am holding on too, that i need to jsut let go off. silly little things too. so maybe i am just over thinking today. Her self doubt has always annoyed me! I wish she knew how truly Beautiful she is! Thats it! Rant over!

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@Mark Cox

i was going to upload of photo of us from the cinema, but didn't know if that was aloud?)

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