After really thinking me and jodi would get back together things have definitely took a downward turn! Its started by Wednesday night work going mad at me telling me I need to get the job done quicker They were bang out of order to me I always try my best! The next day I was at jodis and was supposed to stay there until I left for work I said something which upset her and she told me to leave! I went but forget my phone and wallet so as I went back in she was walking up the stairs in her underwear Sorry she said I didnt know you would be coming back in and because I was angry I said its ok you always do it anyway Meaning the times she has been in the kitchen and told me to advert my eyes! I have quit porn and webcams so even her saying that has a effect on me so I had do my best to explan this before but as I snapped she said from now on you are here for jack and him only i don't want and relationship with you at all! I walked out the door phoned in sick for my shift and went on a walk with the intention of ending my life! She messaged asking if I was safe and when I didn't confirme I was or not she called the police and they was looking for me! The end result i can't now pick up or take my son to school or even see him for the time being until safe guarding checks have taken place But I did go to his show at school yesterday of him playing drums I gave him a cuddle at the end and told him how proud I was and then as I left the school I walked out crying and there was my wife standing right by the door I didn't make eye contact with her but I see her face drop seeing me so upset I carried on walking really hopeing she might try to comfort me or send someone else to but I know she did message my sister and best friend to say I was in a bad way! Just had my 1st bit of food since Wednesday and took a mental health medication for the 1st time ever in my life Feel so alone and so lost but I have now fully accepted there is no future for me and jodi

So after chilling at hers last night while my son was at her sisters her reading a book me watching the France game this morning I heard her awake so left the sofa to take the dog out for a toilet! I brought her up a coffee then her new her mattress come Thats the reason I stayed because she needed to go pick up our son then bring him back and go to work! Manged to drag the old mattress downstairs on my own so it was ready for the men Then when the new one was on her bed she was checking it out in her room She said to me test it encouraging me to lay down on it! I said its your bed not mine I lay down on it with her and thought fuck it and kissed her on the cheek She goes that was very close to my lips smiling at me I said wasn't kissing your lips I am a good boy I am changed man but you look a little disappointed she smiled and went red I said I can get naughty with you anytime you know I love you She smiled and laughed and goes anyway time to go and collect jack and kissed me herself on my cheek Really feeling its only a matter of time now fingers crossed

I’ve just had an emotionally loaded conversation with my wife about putting the house up for sale. I dont want to but I think she is struggling financially so she is pushing. I have told her ideally we need to wait 2 years as the mortgage offer ends then and I’ll be in a more financially stable position to get my own place. I asked her to get some legal advice and see what she will be able to afford herself before we rushed anything as right now we have a nice home, the 3 kids are stable and happy - we (were) getting on fine. But she started throwing all the comments in that it’s me being controlling or that I’m hoping that if I wait a bit longer she will change her mind and come back to me. I said it’s not that it’s more that it’s a massive thing we are discussing and where the children end up living means a lot to me so I don’t want to rush into anything. I asked her what she would do - and then she said I was being patronising and making out she can’t survive on her own. Then it turned into her being nasty and wanting me to move out on my own and how she would speak to somebody to see what she is entitled to financially off me and then other nasty comments about my family. So we ended the conversation and I made excuse that I needed to nip out to the shops. But really I needed to go and have minute to think about what had been said. Turned out to be the best thing as when I came back she had changed her tune! - talking to me about her friends and even implied she was sorry (she didn’t say it directly) and she didn’t want to hurt me she just not liking living like this. But my question is, how can I tell her I don’t want to sell the house in a way that it doesn’t sound like she is trapped or that I’m controlling? I’m hoping this is her just letting off steam and bit of a blip as before this, I was just working on trying to be a friend to her first before trying to rebuild our relationship. Not in pushy way but by being relaxed around each other and not causing tension. Now I’m thinking it’s not been working.

Currently at my wife's as was with the dog and my son until he went to his aunties at 4 he is going to cinema with her and staying ar hers 2night! My wife will be finishing work in ten mins I have made her dinner why do i feel so nervous Northing is gonna happen tonight just feels weird that my son is out so we could actually talk or just hang out !

Hi everyone, my name is Gary. I’ve finally hit rock bottom in my marriage. I’ve been with my current partner for almost 10 years (and married since Dec 2023). I have a son that lives full time with my ex-wife, and (currently) live with my wife and step-daughter. For the last handful years I have been overtly struggling with self confidence (admittedly struggling internally for my whole life), which ultimately lead my wife to tell me she wanted a divorce (on our 1 year anniversary). She loves me but is not in love with me. We’ve been trying to work through things to repair our relationship but I keep sabotaging things with defensiveness. She’s mentioned it in the past, but I’ve just come to terms with the fact that I am a covert narcissist. I also struggle with alcohol consumption (spending almost every night for the past 25 years avoiding my troubles with drinks). Last night she told me that it’s officially over. I am committed to trying to heal myself, and hope that someday I can rekindle a relationship with my wife. Joining this community is my first step toward recovery.