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Introducing myself

Hello Gentlmen,

my name is Charles. Last Argument with my wife Lead me to lay hands on her for the first time in 6 years we have been married. To make matters worst it happened in front our kids. Was a automatic path to Divorce for her. I know its Cowardly and i take full accountability for it. We separated for a week.

However due to us not having a Babysitter i had to come back to the house to watch my kids so she can go to work which i would do no matter what for my kids. Since i was back home we had a good talk about our future. She said she had no feelings for me anymore and i told her the same. So we agreed to it. However i thought of my kids not wanting them to grow up in a household like i did not having two parents and thinking of another man raising my kids. so i stopped her and asked her, i know i hit her and all but will she be up to giving it 1 more try for the sake of the kids. She said yes it was on her mind but her feelings for me have not changed and she really wants me to change and doesnt want her kids living in a Broken Home.

Its here that i admit started getting to comfortable and realizing what i havent been evaluating of myself this whole time. she still let me get jokingly affectionate with her then goes into being intimate however she asked me to do something and i didn't do it which ticked her off and told me these are the things i need to change. Not doing things she asked to do and saying ima do it but not finishing it. Now she has been distant and COLD.. when leaving to work she would usually hive me a hug and the kids now its just the kids getting a hug and just saying Bye to me. When i try get clingy to her i feel she wants me to but shes holding her ground amd pushing me away.. even through what happened we slept in the same bed seperate but end up holding each other in the morning. Now its totally opposite. Now i really just feel like a babysitter and not a Husband and i take full accountability but looking for help and direction in what i should do now just feel lost.. Sorry if this is to long and venting like a baby I really dont have anyone to tell or talk to and share this with.

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Introducing myself