Going through marks videos has been really great help. Havent been real active in this group and not much of a writer but i must say its hard right now. Staying under the same roof with my wife but feel her cold shoulder. I dont know how i should handle this situation with her but couple days ago we were talking about our situation and went from there to being intimate. After… she told me she doesnt want to give me the wrong idea that she still hasnt forgiven me with everything were going through. I said thats fine and i apologized if i over stepped my boundaries with her. She expressed how its hard for her to resist me when i get physical(gently) with her but shes working on it.. now i dont know if what happened will push her farther away or what. I didnt wana panic so i took it to my journal. Did i take it over board knowing her feelings are still the same or should i take a step back and continue to rebuild?

Hello Gentlmen, my name is Charles. Last Argument with my wife Lead me to lay hands on her for the first time in 6 years we have been married. To make matters worst it happened in front our kids. Was a automatic path to Divorce for her. I know its Cowardly and i take full accountability for it. We separated for a week. However due to us not having a Babysitter i had to come back to the house to watch my kids so she can go to work which i would do no matter what for my kids. Since i was back home we had a good talk about our future. She said she had no feelings for me anymore and i told her the same. So we agreed to it. However i thought of my kids not wanting them to grow up in a household like i did not having two parents and thinking of another man raising my kids. so i stopped her and asked her, i know i hit her and all but will she be up to giving it 1 more try for the sake of the kids. She said yes it was on her mind but her feelings for me have not changed and she really wants me to change and doesnt want her kids living in a Broken Home. Its here that i admit started getting to comfortable and realizing what i havent been evaluating of myself this whole time. she still let me get jokingly affectionate with her then goes into being intimate however she asked me to do something and i didn't do it which ticked her off and told me these are the things i need to change. Not doing things she asked to do and saying ima do it but not finishing it. Now she has been distant and COLD.. when leaving to work she would usually hive me a hug and the kids now its just the kids getting a hug and just saying Bye to me. When i try get clingy to her i feel she wants me to but shes holding her ground amd pushing me away.. even through what happened we slept in the same bed seperate but end up holding each other in the morning. Now its totally opposite. Now i really just feel like a babysitter and not a Husband and i take full accountability but looking for help and direction in what i should do now just feel lost.. Sorry if this is to long and venting like a baby I really dont have anyone to tell or talk to and share this with.

Hello Men, I am Marcus. Been a stay at home dad for over 4 years till start of this year. Been wonderful not having my 2 girls have to do any daycare. That has become my life. Beautiful, yet isolated. Moved away from family and friends when we had our fist kiddo. This was during covid. During covid I deconstructed Christianity, being an entrepreneur in the USA, and many other fundamental ideals... this put me in such uncharted area... wife was supportive, and even valued me being home so kids had the life we provided. July last year she woke me up crying saying she couldn't do it alone anymore and needed a partner... (that confused me... I thought we built a strong love and many ways we were good partners) so I stepped in thing she had complained or snapped about when she was overstemulated. Well come February she got a limerance on a guy and decided to separate while she decided if she wanted to divorce or not. As of right now she has been best friends with this guy and they finally went on a date this week. Also since February while starting a new carrier working full time, I've been the one home with girls every night, she is rarely here. So I've been carrying the home alone since February. Partially cause I see her burn out and been protecting that... When she told me about the date. I did let her know I'm still standing, that doesn't change it for me. She has autonomy, so I'm respecting that. We even talked about our spiritual journey. Both are alittle lost there, and both of us are seeking. She is leaning towards divorce heavy still and talks about how we can be this beautiful blended family. My heart, and my spiritual leading has been leaning heavy into reconsideration... I am willing to let go... but haven't gotten enough spiritual confirmation... just seems the confirmation I've gotten is God will bring her back... Since February on top of navigation of a new job, being best dad I can for girls (both special needs and youngest medically fragile requiring 24 hour monitoring and ability to give rescue meds for drug resistant seizures) and personal growth and the household. It's been rough... hit burn out often.