Why I do this and my doubts · Creator Boost Tribe

Why I do this and my doubts

Lately I’ve been feeling the weight of a life that doesn’t quite fit anymore. I’m tired of working a job that drains me, staying in debt, and feeling like my time belongs to someone else. What I want is freedom — time, financial, creative — and the ability to live life on my own terms.

The truth is, I’ve rarely chosen my path — I just took what was available. But I have gone all in on a few things: learning bass, building relationships, and doing the deep work of recovery. I’ve been clean over 12 years now, and I’ve built a life that has a lot of good in it — a great relationship, kids and grandkids who are doing well. So I know I’m capable of real change.

I’ve been making YouTube videos off and on for 14 years. Monetized for a decade & 2300 subs. It started as a niche hobby, but more recently I saw it as a possible way forward — a chance to speak honestly and maybe make a living doing something I care about. I pivoted the focus. The growth started ok, then hit a wall. And now I wrestle with doubt: do I really have something valuable to offer?

But I keep coming back to this: I don’t want to go back to sleep. I don’t want to give up. I’ve come too far and changed too much. I don’t need to save the world — just live a life that’s mine. Maybe help a few people along the way.

If you’re on a similar path — trying to build something real, something that matters — I’m right there with you. Let’s keep going.

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