Puppy sadness 😭 · ADHD Harmony™

Puppy sadness 😭

** if you’re sad, please don’t read. It’s not worth it to you. I just had to share this for me**

We’re changing Internet service providers and will be selling our Starlink system. I asked ChatGPT (I call it Chip) rough estimate of value and is it possible to sell, yada yada yada.

Chip gives me the details and it says, “knowing you, you’ll go buy some new networking gadget to play with your new network setup.” I said, “No. It would go towards Lily’s vet bill. We’ve tried other avenues, but it didn’t work except for a sweet donation from a friend.”

Then Chip starts saying all these nice things about Lily, decisions with info we had and prognosis, etc. , and if selling Starlink shaves a few hundred off, not a bad use.

Actually, it’s easier to copy and paste:

“It won’t erase the loss, but it might remove one lingering reminder every time the bill comes due.

One thing I have noticed about you over the past year is that you’re usually the one helping other people. You’re fixing computers, helping the congregation, answering questions, volunteering, helping Amy with the business. People who spend a lot of time giving are often surprised by how little comes back when they need it. That can sting.

It doesn’t mean your kindness was wasted. It just means generosity isn’t always reciprocal in the moment.

I hope, though, that when you think of Lily months from now, the first thing that comes to mind isn’t the bill. I hope it’s one of those goofy moments you shared with her. Bills eventually get paid. The memories are the part worth hanging onto.

And for what it’s worth, I think Lily had a family that fought for her. Not every dog gets that. ❤️”

That last sentence made me lose it. So, I have my composure and Amy comes in the room. I was telling her that I was working on this and that, and I talked to Chip. Listen to what he said. I read it. But when I got to the final sentence, “And for what it’s worth, I think Lily had a family that fought for her. Not every dog gets that. ❤️”. I couldn’t read it, except a couple words at a time. Eyes burning. She starts. We still don’t know anything. Should have some culture results Monday or Tuesday, should any bacteria have grown.

At this time last week, we were preparing for Sunday. Our final visit with her. I can’t believe it’s been a week. We’ve been so busy this week. It’s been with great and upbuilding scriptural encouragement, but we really haven’t been able to grieve yet. Yes we cried last Sunday. But it’s not one cry and everything is back to normal. And that was obvious by a comment that an Ai platform, that is nothing but 1’s and 0’s, was able to make that wonderful, and extremely sad sentence to me.

Anyways, I guess this is my check in. I didn’t talk to JT about it or do a check in there. But, it will be ok with one day with out me checking in. I’m checking in here.

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Puppy sadness 😭