If it doesn’t pull you, don’t force it …. Hard lesson to unscramble

This morning I just want to sit and sip my coffee …nothing else …. Not even the beach in this heat is pulling … My go to flow in life was rush rush rush and then fill up the day and rush some more all because I wanted everyone to see me excel in THEIR world. Never mind I was killing myself. Even after being diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder I couldn’t stop rushing and pushing, even in my retirement I couldn’t stop those voices bellowing at me to “Go Do Something”!

After working with JT, Jim’s Twin, I have quieted the voices… released the guilt … and discovered a side of me that I actually love. I’ve still got a bit of work, well quite a bit, and I’ll keep on truckin’ as they say……

💡 Personal Insight Teri, there's a beautiful honesty in this morning's entry: you're in a genuinely good mood, watered the gardens, fed the birds, and yet you can't lift yourself off that comfortable chair to decide about the beach. That's not laziness, that's your wisdom. You're built to respond to what genuinely calls you, not to push yourself into plans your body isn't hungry for. Notice how you said it feels "odd" not having much to say. That quiet isn't emptiness. It's you sitting in a rare, full contentment after seven steady days of high calm and happiness. Today the whole sky is asking everyone to slow down and feel their way forward, which is your native language. If the beach doesn't pull you clearly, that IS your answer, and the Matrix work will meet you when it's ready, not a moment before. Stop waiting to feel decisive. Wait to feel drawn.

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