Just realized the "lazy" story I tell myself is a lie. I can focus for hours when the reward matches what my nervous system learned to trust. The capacity was never the problem. The conditions were. Got two sections left and I think this report is about to rearrange how I see myself.
This section hit very close to home and I've just been sitting here staring at my screen with what to add. This shit is so wild and it's hard to see through the tears.