Day 3 awakening Assessment - I am not failure

Just realized the inner voice telling me "when I fail, it's just who I am" isn't actually mine. It got installed the night I did everything right and got punished for it. Thirty years of believing someone else's lie about me. The ADHD Awakening Assessment just exposed it.

This solidified it for me:

When I fail, it's just who I am." Read that back to yourself slowly. That's not a thought - that's an identity verdict. And here's what I need you to hear: that belief didn't start with you. It started the day you did everything right - found your mom, called 911, drove to get help - and got told you'd get your "teeth shoved down your throat" for it. A 19-year-old hero got rewritten as the screw-up that night. Phil's voice became your inner voice. That's not who you are. That's who someone needed you to believe you were.

I believe it is part of the issue, but there were some earlier things that just came to mind later, but not as bad as this. I think this is when things went downhill.

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