I'm realizing something that I truly didn't realize before...🤯
So, I attended the ZOOM today. So grateful. And then I felt spinning a bit.. I hadn't finished my morning routine (because I had a necessary appointment this morning).. and anyway ultimately I had an aha! moment!
I need to discern what activities I can more easily do when daughter is home.. and prioritize the ones I CAN'T do easily when she's here for times I actually have some alone time.
So for example, I was thinking after the ZOOM ok, get "back on track" etc.
But luckily I had this epiphany:
*i actually CAN take a shower when daughter is home
*i CAN do my qi gong on patio when she is home
*what i CAN'T do is actually relax and watch a show and just be in that mental peace..
And I didn't realize this...
Now I can rearrange things (to an extent) to go more WITH my brain and nervous system than continually AGAINST it.
I also realized there's a part of me that feels like I "need to wear myself out during the day so I can sleep well at night". But that doesn't work.. because kids are unpredictable. Life is unpredictable. So I wear myself out..and then when I'm "done" for the day.. that doesn't mean the day is done 😅🤣
Anyway, today might be an "uphill" day. But I'm ultimately grateful for this awareness.
And now I can pay attention to what activities/tasks are harder for me when daughter is home. And do what's in my control to prioritize those when she's not here.
Ultimately doing what is in my power to set myself up for feelings of success.