There are 2.5 million deaths in the U.S. every year. Millions more face divorce, diagnosis, job loss, and loss of identity. The mental health system is overwhelmed. Grief coaches are desperately needed — and there are nowhere near enough of them. If you've felt pulled toward this work, that pull is not random. Today would have been my partner's 51st birthday. She won't get to celebrate it. So I'm doing something in her honor — offering what I know best, at a price that carries meaning: $51, one dollar for every year she deserved to live. This course normally costs $2,700. Today, for five hours left only, it's $51. This is my grief turned into purpose — and I hope it becomes yours too. 1 in 5 adults are actively grieving at any given time $2,649 you're saving today, compared to the normal price WHAT YOU GET - ✓Full Certified Grief Coach curriculum — start immediately - ✓Certification you can use with real clients.  Globally recognized and accredited in 82 Countries. - ✓Frameworks for holding space through loss, trauma & transition - ✓Tools to build a practice that sustains you and serves others - ✓Lifetime access — learn at your own pace TIME REMAINING 04hours $2,700$51 $1 for every year she deserved. Gone at midnight PST Yes — I'm ready to answer this call This price disappears when the clock strikes midnight. No exceptions. LINK TO ENROLL HERE: https://mastergrief.com/terrybirthday

Three months today. Haven’t been doing very well for the past few days. This time next week we will be spreading her ashes. I told my sister-in-law (Kim’s sister) that I was stuck on the grief side of TikTok. She told me maybe I should get off of grief TikTok (in a loving way). I don’t know how to tell her that it helps to know I’m not alone in this. This club that none of us want to belong to.

I'm not doing too well atm. It's 7pm Tuesday where I am. It's been a very lonely day. Probably of my own making. I try to reach out to my friends and family by staying in touch and staying "interested" in their lives. I check in on them and show an interest in what's going on their lives but tbh, it's not reciprocated. Maybe theyre to scared to ask? I don't know. Even our daughter, who is travelling Australia with her husband just messages me in response to my texts. The text to her aren't about how I'm feeling just taking an interest and sending the odd photo of what's happening in my life, and keeping her up to date with her mum. Eileen has been in care for 2.5 years. She's stable atm but is non verbal and unable to do anything for herself. It almost feels like friends and family are "bored" that there's no news. I very rarely post on Facebook but I did months ago for Eils b'day (and our wedding). An old work colleague messaged me to say that when she sees a post from me that she assumes the worst. Wtf. Are people just waiting for news that Eils has passed and then just turn up to her funeral. Then what?

Today would have been Terry’s 51st. I still don’t fully know how to process this day. Because part of me resists calling it a birthday… she didn’t get another year. She didn’t get more time. And yet ignoring it feels just as wrong. This is the part of grief people don’t talk about— how we end up living between dates. The day they were born. The day they died. Both major in completely different ways. And when someone dies the way Terry did, it adds another layer of confusion. So I use today the only way that feels honest for me now— to tell the truth. She didn’t leave because she didn’t love. She didn’t leave because she didn’t care. And she didn’t leave because she “chose” to in the way people think. Her mind was unwell. She suffered an illness of the kind. And that’s how she died. And when the mind is unwell, it can become incredibly convincing. It can narrow everything down to pain… and make escape feel like the only option. That’s not a character flaw. It’s suffering. So no, I’m not celebrating in the traditional sense today. But I am honoring her— by speaking about this in a way that removes blame and replaces it with understanding. If you’ve ever felt that same tension on days like this… you’re not the only one trying to make sense of it. That’s Terry and I in the video below. 24 more hours to take advantage of Terry Birthday Giveaway and become a Globally Certified Grief Educator for $51. Link here - we NEED people like YOU http://mastergrief.com/terrybirthday