- I used the Reset Ritual when I started to get anxious about all the recent life changes happening for me right now. When I do this is would help me ease and calm back down. Letting the thoughts and issues that could arise be thought of and why it was getting to me. Then reset my nervous system as well letting me go back to focusing on whatever taste I had going on.

So the one thing I did to get out of my comfort zone was sort of embarrassing myself as I hate recording myself talking online in front of who know how many people will see. I purposely posted a story that I messed up on my wording and sort of rambled. But I put myself out that while also showing my face! It was tough hitting that submit button.

- One trait I’ve reclaimed this week is being irritable. Here’s the moment I lived it. I love to work with my hands and take on every task. In the past I would become irritable if it didn’t go my way! I would become annoyed with myself and would throw a tool or smack it against something totally losing my cool! Yesterday I was working on the house and putting back a storage system after being painted and was struggling to get in between the cabinet and vanity to put the screws in a brace. It took 20 minute to put 2 screws in and I slightly got irritated but then I immediately went into breathing and thinking how to get this and just ended up asking my mom too hold the cabinet tilted up even though it required removing to screws and someone help and it took me 10 seconds to fix and I just ended up laughing at myself instead of letting it bring my mood down for the rest of the day like it usually would have!

Yesterday at bedtime well most bedtimes, is when I tend to crack and lose control of emotions or I’m just rushing through the routine of it. My oldest daughter likes to dawdle quite bit around these times and I always get on her about it. So not just this week but most days I lay them down I’m doing this but tonight before we start I’m going to breathe and get to a good spot in my core and be intentional with what I say and instead of correct actions I will connect with my actions. If I feel myself getting tight and frustrated I will breathe again and get through the bedtime routine without losing control and being grounded and more present during this time.

Last night I snapped at my partners Grandfather. I won't get into it but It was a stressful situation for all of us. Most the time I had been grounded but then when the tension of the situation rose and I had commands from multiple direction. I momentarily lost my feet and raised my voice. I re-grounded myself after this moment and helped out others in the situation and came to group with more presence. I apologised and thankfully her grandfather recognised the stress of the situation and my attempt to help, rather than the volume/tone it was portrayed. Nevertheless, this was a snap moment for me. Next time I will have a pattern interrupt - likely with a rubber band, to signal to myself that my anxiety is raising and I need to recognise the situation, not just the direction