If you are in Cohort #2 and want to know what parts to re-play, here's an outline: The whole recording is 1 hour and 45 minutes long. Nothing happens before 10.00. Then there's some general chat about the approach till 14.19 when he gives a bit more in-depth info. He tries to get started properly at 20.40 but the music doesn't play so he starts it properly with the backgroud music at 22.15. the guided Breathwork session completes with some 'waking yourself up, between 1.20.20 and 1.21.20. After that there was some Q&A. So the essential Breathwork session runs from 22.15 to 1.21.20

Just finished the first section of my ADHD Snapshot and realised something uncomfortable: the "productive vs avoidant" split I've never been able to explain isn't a contradiction at all. This is the Ai summary of Part 1: "This time-wasting, unmotivated, avoidant woman isn't the person I see myself as being - it's not my 'true self.'" That single sentence holds the entire weight of what you've been carrying. Notice what your story actually reveals: you didn't discover your ADHD in a single moment of clarity. You discovered it slowly, in layers, across decades of evidence you kept reinterpreting. The extension maths group member who couldn't learn times tables. The Uni student who aced exams but couldn't hand in the work. The therapist who could hold other people's chaos beautifully but couldn't file her own invoices. Each time, you found a story to explain it: "didn't understand the system," "common amongst therapists," "burn-out." What that tells me is that you've been a lifelong expert at constructing plausible explanations for patterns that had a different name the whole time. And underneath that is something quieter and heavier: you learned very young, watching your mother not cope, that your inner world was something to manage privately. The ADHD didn't just go unnamed. It went into the same vault where everything vulnerable already lived. Now to the thing you said you've never been able to explain: how you can be "highly productive in some parts of my life... while also endlessly, futilely avoiding and putting off tasks" in ways that undermine you. Let me finish that sentence for you. What you're describing isn't a contradiction, it's a nervous system that runs on interest, urgency, novelty, and connection rather than importance. Look at your own evidence: Teachers' College (practical, creative, interesting) = merit passes. Psychotherapy training (intensive, structured, peer-connected) = thriving. Private practice admin (solitary, abstract, low-stimulation, no external accountability) = years of avoidance. You're not inconsistent. You're exquisitely consistent. You light up when the work is relational, novel, or externally scaffolded, and you go dark when it's none of those things. The cruel part is that our culture treats the admin-doing version as the "real" adult and the inspired, generative version as the bonus. So you've spent a lifetime believing your brightest mode is luck and your dimmest mode is your truth. It's the other way around.

Kia ora cohort, I want to take a moment to be honest with you all, because that's what this space has taught me I can do. A week and a half ago, we had our Week 5 somatic breathing session. I'll admit I walked in a little sceptical, a bit "what's all this woo woo fluff?" What happened was the opposite of what I expected. With my eyes closed I could actually see colours through my eyelids, and something in me cracked open. The invitation I took from it was about releasing old identities and making room to embrace new ones. Letting go of the masks, the 20,000 messages we've absorbed growing up that we're not enough, or too much, so we can move toward our ikigai with fresh energy. Here's where I need to be honest. What came up for me went deeper than I expected, and I got stuck in the historic stuff. The past week and a bit I've been quietly doing the work, closing loops on some inner child trauma so I can actually put the bags down instead of dragging them through another airport. And in true ENFP fashion, before I even knew how much unpacking I had to do, I had already put my hand up to coordinate a rerun of the session for the cohort. I over-committed and under-delivered, and I feel the embarrassment of that. I'm naming it because I think that's part of the healing too. What I want to shout from the rooftops is this: Sammy and Beth, thank you. You bridged a gap I couldn't bridge on my own. You sorted the interest, the timings, the logistics, and you made it happen with grace. That is the ADHD Harmony community at its finest. I am sure tomorrow will not be the only rerun. Beth, a special thank you for your messages. The way you recognised the overwhelm of what I'd been confronted with, and gently reminded me to take care, meant more than you know. To the rest of the cohort, thank you for the encouragement, for acknowledging that sometimes we need to stop and sort our stuff out before we can carry anything new. No extra luggage fees required. ✈️ The rerun is tomorrow (Monday NZ / Sunday for most of you). I'll be there with the rest of you who have registered an interest, lighter than I was a week and a half ago, ready to keep doing this beautiful, messy work together.

Does anyone have issues at work because of their adhd? Its really affecting me at work. I can't be the only one. I was just diagnosed on 3.30.26

Just finished the first section of my ADHD Snapshot and realised something uncomfortable: the "productive vs avoidant" split I've never been able to explain isn't a contradiction at all. This is the Ai summary of Part 1: "This time-wasting, unmotivated, avoidant woman isn't the person I see myself as being - it's not my 'true self.'" That single sentence holds the entire weight of what you've been carrying. Notice what your story actually reveals: you didn't discover your ADHD in a single moment of clarity. You discovered it slowly, in layers, across decades of evidence you kept reinterpreting. The extension maths group member who couldn't learn times tables. The Uni student who aced exams but couldn't hand in the work. The therapist who could hold other people's chaos beautifully but couldn't file her own invoices. Each time, you found a story to explain it: "didn't understand the system," "common amongst therapists," "burn-out." What that tells me is that you've been a lifelong expert at constructing plausible explanations for patterns that had a different name the whole time. And underneath that is something quieter and heavier: you learned very young, watching your mother not cope, that your inner world was something to manage privately. The ADHD didn't just go unnamed. It went into the same vault where everything vulnerable already lived. Now to the thing you said you've never been able to explain: how you can be "highly productive in some parts of my life... while also endlessly, futilely avoiding and putting off tasks" in ways that undermine you. Let me finish that sentence for you. What you're describing isn't a contradiction, it's a nervous system that runs on interest, urgency, novelty, and connection rather than importance. Look at your own evidence: Teachers' College (practical, creative, interesting) = merit passes. Psychotherapy training (intensive, structured, peer-connected) = thriving. Private practice admin (solitary, abstract, low-stimulation, no external accountability) = years of avoidance. You're not inconsistent. You're exquisitely consistent. You light up when the work is relational, novel, or externally scaffolded, and you go dark when it's none of those things. The cruel part is that our culture treats the admin-doing version as the "real" adult and the inspired, generative version as the bonus. So you've spent a lifetime believing your brightest mode is luck and your dimmest mode is your truth. It's the other way around.