I’m excited for the this transition to Trainerize. Using it as a fresh start for myself. 🤩

Well y’all I’ve been MIA the last few weeks.. like the Fresh Prince of BelAir my life got flipped, turned upside down… but I didn’t land in a fancy BelAir mansion but rather the unemployment line, I fell victim to position elimination during company acquisition.. so I’ve been sulking, eating my feelings, being hella lazy, failing on my promises/commitments to myself of getting back on track with healthy habits/actions & applying for 975,000 jobs.. Hopefully things are on the upswing for jobs though, I had a field interview/shadowing yesterday, I have an in person interview today for a position I phone interviewed for last week & panel interview next week for the position I field interviewed for yesterday.. today I got up & did some strength training & am already feeling “better”. I have been following along though!! It’s not about how many times ya fall though it’s making sure you get back up !!

How is everyone’s mini challenge going !! June is almost over. But it isn’t over. Still time to pivot and focus. My step intention and focus have been 👎🏼. Social media goals , I am killing ! I had been working on that for a bit so was easy to continue that focus and decrease. But I am really struggling with steps. I get up lift and do some cardio - but no intentional walks in the day currently.

I don’t often share my health journey on social media. In fact, I’ve kept most of it pretty private. Part of that is because I never wanted my journey to make someone else feel like they were falling behind in theirs. We all have different starting points, different challenges, and different timelines. Comparison can steal so much joy, and I’ve never wanted to contribute to that. But I wanted to share this here because this feels like a safe space. And if there is someone newer in their journey, feeling discouraged, frustrated, or wondering if they’ll ever get where they want to be, maybe this is for you. Three years ago, I traveled to Ireland. At the time, I was struggling in ways that most people didn’t see. The truth is, I hated my body. I hated seeing photos of myself. And if I’m being completely honest, I didn’t like myself very much either. I had lost weight before and gained it back. More than once. Every time it happened, I felt like I had failed. I carried a lot of shame, frustration, and disappointment with me. I worried about airplane seatbelts. I worried about fitting comfortably in spaces. I worried about how I looked and what people thought. Honestly I felt just puffy and uncomfortable. On the other hand while I was struggling in so many ways, I had a lot going for me. I have an amazing partner and friend group. After taking a risk and securing a new job, I felt I could have more balance and my me a stronger priority. When I got home, I made a decision, I would no longer be the last priority to myself. I decided to make my health a priority. That led me to working with a nutritionist, a trainer, an endocrinologist, and finally pulling the trigger to reach out to a coach I had been following for over a year. I leaned into accepting support instead of trying to do everything on my own. The change didn’t happen overnight. It happened through hundreds of ordinary decisions repeated over and over again. Today, I don’t measure my worth by the scale, and I don’t measure my happiness by it either.

My goals for this June challenge are 7K steps, 40oz water, and 1.5hrs of social media apps (Facebook, Instagram & TikTok). The last two days have been baby steps with water and steps but I’m doing well limiting my social media apps. I’d like to continue getting a 20 minute walk with Brandy in. I know I can do 7K steps so that will come. I’d like to increase my water to actually be 40oz. Here’s to day 3!