Today I experienced a guided practice of self connection with @Josée LaRoche, with the kind company of @Eric Ouellette and missing the presence of @Kosta Pagonas. I arrived overwhelmed, blocked and confused. I left sad but present, with a tender heart, with a deep clarity of the huge pain I was avoiding but that was preventing me from moving. Josée asked me: Do you want to learn more about what you are feeling? I said yes, but I was feeling my resistance. She gently asked me questions to help me see below the layers of "Fear is stoping me from doing what I need to do" and get to this very old feeling of "I feel so helpless". Those were words of a tiny child inside me. And instead of ignoring me, I could be present to myself. I didn't "solve" my issues there, but feeling the actual feeling I was experiencing felt so true. It allowed me to know where I was standing, and the very real next steps I could take. Very grateful to have this guide available in the community and to be able to learn to do it for myself!

On today's call, I experienced the self-connection process with Josée's guidance. It was so much more than I expected! My feeling at the end of the session was "relief" because I ended up dealing with and resolving something unpleasant from my childhood that was occasionally (even though rarely) showing up unexpectedly in my thoughts. That's not what I started out with in the process. I was rather working on a recent unpleasant situation, but, through the process and Josée's gentle questions, this childhood event unexpectedy came back to me (it had to do with what an uncle said to me). And it made total sense in explaining my unusually strong feelings related to the current (rather seemingly small) situation, even though both situations seemed unrelated. My inner child had been hurt. And the process made me grow and evolve as an adult to better take care of my hurt inner child. Two things I had never connected before, when this childhood event showed up in my thoughts, finally got connected together: I just happened to be present at a time when my uncle needed to unload. His hurtful words, which I always accepted as caused by me, were in reality not because of me. I was just the one present as an excuse for him unloading some of his own emotions. What I had not connected is that, at that young age, I still had not realized he was an alcoolic and under lots of stress too. He was therefore not always in control of himself. I only realized that later in my adolescence. But I had never linked that back to the childhood event with him. When I made the link today, when Josée asked me how I would support a child to undestand that situation (annd that it was none of the child's fault) ... my hurt inner child instantly felt relieved. For good I think! Re-reading my text above, I realize it might be confusing to others... but it make total sense and feels so right to me. To finish, as I reflected on this session afterwards, I realize that it led to a fruitful result because I abandoned myself to the process. I did not let my preconceived notions and rational mind tweak the inital asnwers/feelings that were coming up in me as Josée was gently questioning me. Even if these initial answers seemed unrelated to what we started out with. What was first coming up in me was what needed to come out. As I progress in life, I realize more and more that I can trust what shows up in me instantly when questioning myself in a mindful/relaxed state. Call it intuition or inner voice, I guess at this moment I will call it my divine essence talking to me, guiding me.

On Monday I joined the community zoom to be guided on self connection. I reflected about the effort I do to "be worty" in th eyes of others 🥲 This week I was observing how I treat my needs as a burden. And first I was angry (I am exercising daily, and it was almost midnight and had not made space in my day or house to do it - because I would "interrupt" the others). But then I realized the pain I was causing me by not taking care of this piece of commitment to myself to be in good shape 😓 I saw the unreasonable excuses I told me not to do it. So I woke up and exercised 💪 I was happy to take a step into taking care of me😊 I like this component of "truth" in the process Josée is teaching us 🙌 a good antidote vs my inner fights.

Since the video will not be available, I wanted to share from my side what it was being guided in the self connection demo. First, of all a big Thanks, @Josée LaRoche 🤗 it was a very powerful way to get insights that "come from inside" and that don't make me fight them like "orders" coming from outside 💝 I think it was somehow like a chat with the voices of the angel vs devil in my shoulder 👺😇 with a wise moderator who was kindly looking for the truth. Again I am surprised that I got no "new" information, but yes in a way I can actually process it, like before it was wrapped in plastic, but now it was ready to take a bite and get energy from it. And of course, thank you too @Kosta Pagonas , for your kind presence and your example to be in apprentice mode. See you on the next one!

Hi everyone... Unfortunately... when I left the meeting, I realized I forgot to start the recording... So sorry about this, it was a wonderful moment and I was excited to share it with the group, but I can't. Maybe Kosta and Lorena will tell you more about what they experienced today. I guided Lorena through a self-connection process, and it was really touching and beautiful. Just a reminder for the group: those demos don't require you to have watched or participated in any of the courses. They're guided by me, it's experiential, not teaching. I just recommend reading the pdf I provided so you have an idea of what to expect beforehand. Thanks very much, Lorena and Kosta, for participating today!