I first wanted to be a Reiki Master Teacher, Healer and Energetic Life Coach back in 2014. It has been 4,380 DAYS since then. What has it cost me? It almost cost me my identity. It has cost me happiness, fulfillment, over $50,000 in investing in the wrong thing, moments that cannot be relived, stress, a marriage, a lot.

I first wanted to do this sometime around 2018. I recognized the skills earlier on however unaware what I would want to do with the skills. I have always helped others to heal in one way or another, even as a young child but unaware of what that meant truly, unaware of a gift. Tracing back to at least 2018, it’s been 2,555 days This has cost me a lot of money for nursing school! The peace of operating in my true self. This has cost me heartache as I absorbed more than I could expel for lack of wisdom regarding my calling. This has cost me pain as a result of self doubt, constantly denying self and time that I could have been focused on my own inner world instead of competing in the outer world for their paper acknowledgment (although helpful, depending) I had lost ME as a result of split identity. And a lot of sleep and confidence!

The Nervous System Math (1) When did you FIRST want to do this thing? In November of 2023 was when me first wanted to write my life's story, but it has been since July of 1992 when me suffered with amnesia, that me have wanted to know who me is. Actually, while writing this, me remember always wanting to know who me is anyway. Therefore, me have been learning, unlearning, and relearning information from scratch, during this last half part of my life; as well as intermittent memories in moments of remembrance. (2) How many DAYS has it been? November of 2023 - 2 years × 365 + 50 days = 720 + 50 = 770 days. July of 1992 - 33 years × 365 + 170 days = 12,045 + 170 = 12,215 days. August of 1957 - 68 years × 365 + 169 days = 24,820 + 169 = 24,989 days. (3) What has this cost you? Me don't know how much income me have lost by staying in a split identity. But throughout my 68 years of living, my peace has taken a great toll, my freedom of expression has been mostly in stasis and unfulfilled, and my confidence had been greatly impacted by my lack mindset, various defects in my character, which does have a direct stymied effect in affecting my provision and offerings to products of my service, that is valued in the public sector before now. It stands to reason, for me, that the Nervous System Math requires me to balance the cost deficiency of my past into cost proficiency in my present state of being. This lab is my medicine and me is taking it as prescribed. Me is well on my way in meeting the Nervous System Math's balance requirements.

1. I FIRST wanted to do this in 2024 — Energetic Surgeon was born from a dream… but when I trace it back, the seed has been in me since childhood: the one who could feel what wasn’t being said, read the room, and instinctively go straight to the root. 2. 2 × 365 = 730 days. 3. It’s cost me income (undercharging + delaying bigger offers), peace (overthinking + second-guessing), freedom (playing small to feel “safe”), confidence (waiting for permission), and momentum (starting, stopping, restarting). I’m done negotiating with what I already know.

I knew around 2017 that I was called to it. Someone had prophecied to me about it, then I had a dream where it was confirmed. 3000 days of dragging my feet. Being inconsistent. Makes me feel disgusted. 😏 It’s not about the money as much as the impact and the “assignments.” I’ve always felt we all have something for those we cross paths with, and we never know whose life is supposed to be changed by what we’ve been purposed to do. But if I’ve learned anything, it’s to turn that pain into purpose.