How easy it is to forget Consciousness Work

I spontaneously sat down for a solo contemplation just yesterday for the first time in a while and noticed something strange. Even though I think I practice this work a lot, most of it is still in the domain of life management. During the contemplation I got to a core part of my experience which I rarely visit. I was reminded how mindblowing this work actually is, when it is done for real. I know this experience is available, but it doesn't occur to me to visit amongst all the problems and challenges of life. Even when working on being complete, it is a life management driven endeavour. It feels great. Wanting the truth, being curious about the reality of anything is a different project.

It is amazing how fast I forget the experience of practicing consciuosness work. By it's nature it is deep and goes to the core. It seems that the mind cannot remember depth. A memory of depth is nothing compared to the experience. Even when I had that expereience many many times.

If I want it to make a real difference in my general life experience, if I want to have a more core, more real, deeper experience as my default, the only way around that is to expereience the depth now.

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