I noticed in the ACW that I don't work on getting absolute Now very often. So I've been working on it. This morning I was doing my regular "whole body workout". Part of it is light tapping around the eyes, it's my own version of the EFT technique (a psychology "trick" used for freedom from emotional baggage). There's this part where I tap on my eyebrows and repeat "I'm here for you. I'm always right here. Right now. Forever and ever and ever...". I was doing that when I realized forever and ever is just an idea. And then I suddenly and easily got Now. I noticed I had stopped worrying about time. Everything is Now. That was the experience. Very pleasant! The thing I want to say about this one is it should be easy, once you get past the ideas about time. Indeed like they say just start by noticing it's always now. For me that makes it more accessible. Maybe for y'all as well.

Imagine you have a fish bowl and some very special marbles that shrink in size when pressure is applied. Now imagine stuffing these marbles into the fish bowl. The bowl starts to fill up. The marbles start to shrink because of the pressure. Keep stuffing more marbles. Notice they keep shrinking smaller and smaller and still fit into the fish bowl. Now stuff an infinite number of these marbles into the bowl. What happens? Notice that even though it's "impossible" to do that, you can still use your imagination. Use it. What do you imagine? Now get past your imagination. What is the true nature of infinity?

I just finished the ACW and wanted to post on my "big breakthrough" on the nature of infinity. Here's my recollection of what happened. I was contemplating. I was trying to picture an infinite number of objects. I knew this was a dead end but my mind persisted for a while. Then a shift occurred. I realized that the "little objects" were being held as representation of distinction itself. I experienced removing the limitation of distinction. There was a letting go. And then suddenly I got it. Now I know things I didn’t know before. My first date with infinity didn’t go very well (in school). I’ve kind of become buddies with infinity after a slow start haha!

I sincerely hope this "poem" helps... Note to self: If the truth is that nothing is true, it could become a problem for my mind which has a drive to know. I could go insane trying to hold what can't be held. Don't do that!

I had an insight regarding discipline today. Normally I think of discipline as something I use to accomplish something new. But today I realized discipline isn't limited to "something I can't do yet". Discipline can also be used to STOP doing something I am already doing that's just causing mischief and suffering. A habit of mind that comes from a bottom line belief, backed by an assumption, usually about me. I can hold a vigil. Notice the habit whenever it comes up. I can learn to be a grown-up and just stop doing it. And I can contemplate the bottom line if it's super strong and just won't go away. All of this takes discipline. In case you're all wondering, the habit I have that I'm now working on is social (of course!). It's where I try to be "helpful" to others by offering advice, then I feel hurt or disappointed when my advice is rejected or dismissed in some way. Then I fester and obsess over it for days afterwards. It always passes, but then something else always takes its place. Maybe some of you have something like this going on as well. Somehow knowing I can bring discipline to this problem has already changed my relationship to the matter. I am committed to ending this type of suffering.