Good morning Conquerors! How is everyone today? Just wanted to check in because it is 11 am and I NOT knocked out 🥳 I still feel tired but not completely incapacitated. So I'm going to take the medication tonight and I'm hoping it gives me an amazing night sleep! And hoping to have even more energy tomorrow during the day as a result.

How is everyone? I did a meditation first thing this morning after washing g my face. Took med at 8 am- 12th dose. Got morning sun etc. Ate protein too. And what I realized is that about 10 am every day since taking the medication, I have passed out on couch. Yes at first it coincided with time of month and Lilly leaving etc. And just sheer true exhaustion. But I really think it is the medication. So, I'm proud of myself ultimately because even though it "shouldn't" have this effect, it DOES for me. At least for now. So I got the ok to try taking it at night. Not tonight. But basically NOT take it tomorrow morning, and take it tomorrow night at bedtime. Because even though it is having a positive effect on my brain, as in it is quieting things down etc, it isn't conducive to actually being able to critically think or even keep my eyes open 😅 I wouldn't have even been able to write this earlier. So all of that to say, I know that I'm changing because I wouldn't have advocated for myself before. I would have been told "that's not common" and let others invalidate my actual experience (story of my life!) But this time, I KNEW I had to do something. I'm willing to keep trying it but NOT during the day. That being said, I have a meeting tonight. I have a ride and I AM going to attend because it is people etc. I do still feel tired but not completely incapacitated like I was before. I still want to do my streaks today! I have written in my journal and done a meditation.. I think I need to do everything else 😅

Hi Conquerors! How are you doing? I have done my first meditation of the day. Done my Spanish practice. Drinking lots of water. Eaten protein. This is all feeling clunky. Because my brain wants to SOLVE the situation. But that isn't going to happen by me worrying. That being said, two days ago I started purposely meditating twice a day. Once as soon as I wake up (or by 7:30) and once in the afternoon. It is VERY new for me to do this. It is literally INTERRUPTING the thoughts and it isn't easy but I'm thinking it is important. So, I'm going to do that now. Before I forget. Before I get distracted.

Hello, Conquerors!! How is everyone doing today? I ended up allowing myself to take a nap. Even though it didn't make sense to me. But I read a couple articles about adhd and I'm realizing even more things. That being said, I've kept up my streaks 🤯 Which I wouldn't have even known had I not been tracking them every day. I'm really starting to fine-tune some protocols that are making me feel excited. These are foundational things. The whole idea is for me to do them regardless of circumstances. So I think I have "evening" pretty squared away 🤔 basically, unless I already have plans, I'm "shutting down" the downstairs by 9 at the latest. And I'm IN bed without phone by 10. I read an article today that I think really helped explain: when you struggle with the "obvious" things in life, this is why it makes living itself feel hard. I don't naturally get hunger cues until I'm about to pass out. My "natural" sleep pattern is completely different from what I'm forced to do. And I truly don't know HOW to not let others' rejection bother me. Doesn't mean I can't figure out possible ways. But that's my point. It IS harder than if these things came naturally. That being said, I'm going to spend 20 minutes taking stuff OUT of my room! Let's DO this! 😁

*I* don't forget things. My brain does. *I* am not forgetful. My brain struggles to remember without accommodations. This is an important distinction. Just like *I* am not sad. I experience feelings of sadness. It amazes me to this day how simple language tweaks can really make the difference!