How is everyone doing? I'm realizing a lot of things. And the bottom line is, one thing I CAN do is create a WRITTEN routine and TAPE it to the cabinet. This way I'm not having to reinvent the wheel every dang day. And I literally NEED to BUILD IN downtime for myself. Even if I don't think I need it. And I have to figure out and respect what "downtime" means for ME. What does it look like? What does it FEEL like? What is the difference between "recovering" and "enjoying"? For example laying in bed is recovering. It is not actually enjoyable for me So I can do it but it does NOT fulfill me. What FULFILLS me in part is meaningful and authentic conversations with others.

Good morning Conquerors!! How is everyone this morning? I have done my meditation, washed my face, ate protein, took vitamins and med, prepped water and drank a bunch, and went to car. I've also made a protein shake. I definitely have lots of thoughts. But what I noticed is I had decided to spend 20 minutes on putting away clean clothes. And I set the timer had music on and when the timer went off, I actually stopped! This is actually massive for me. And I am back downstairs and at 11 am, I will go back up and work more on putting away the clothes. I see how in the past, if I wasn't sure where to put EVERYTHING, I basically wouldn't even start. And NOW I'm actually starting to say do the "easy" aka my brain doesn't have to stress where it goes stuff first. And do it in time controlled segments. And ACTUALLY stop and take a break when timer goes off.

Good morning Conquerors! How is everyone this morning? I am definitely... "unfurling" from the school year.. and I'm realizing it is taking longer/feels more intense because my system has absolutely had it with this treatment and is saying things WILL change. I woke up at 4 am.. But that being said, it is currently 8:18 am here. I've done a meditation, gotten up, gone to car to verbalize a plan for today, realized my next right action to try was a little walk, made a protein shake and did it! I've also taken 3rd day of medication. I'm really proud of myself overall because a part of me did NOT want to do Operation Dreamland last night. It is the "summer", after all. But you know what? I've made a deal with myself. If I'm truly OUT having fun, then I don't have to have a bedtime. But I'm no longer going to fall for the mirage that staying up until 1 am on my phone or watching TV by myself is good for me. It isn't. This is by far the longest streak that I've had a bedtime especially when I don't "have" to. But I'm determined to do EVERYTHING I can to have a better quality of life. So that being said, I'm going to do my streaks again today. My brain does NOT see the cumulative effect, but I'm doing them anyway.

Good morning, Conquerors!! How is everyone this morning? Last night was a struggle. I did go to bed early. I decided not to take the medicine last night (that one I can take "as needed". I did eventually fall asleep. And I DID stay away from my phone. So still a huge win for me. I did sudoku but was definitely struggling with intrusive thoughts. That being said, today is a NEW day! I've done a meditation and I have a meeting at 8:30 am. It is currently almost 7 am here. Goals for this next hour: *turn on affirming music- need to think of this as productive because it IS! *get up *wash face and moisturize *go downstairs- bring earbuds, phone, journal *take vitamins (and then medication at 8 am) *prep daily water *drink water!! *protein breakfast Love you guys! Let's DO this 🥰

Good morning Conquerors! How is everyone this morning? I definitely have had mixed feelings/thoughts since last night. But reminding myself (and you) that today is a NEW day!! Need to start drinking water, so! Going to turn on affirming music, and my goals for this hour: *wash face *moisturize *put on clothes (anything but robe counts) *get downstairs- bring journal, phone, earbuds *prep daily water *take vitamins *eat protein!! * Let's go! 🥰