I am FREEING myself!! SOO grateful🥰 Good morning! I am definitely in a transformation🤯. I'm realizing on a deeper level (more embodied level) that *I* am ONLY responsible for what *I* say and *I* do! So for example, I was feeling sad.. and worse this morning. But I realized (thankfully!!) that *I* don't need to be sad because of what SOMEONE ELSE says or does. *I* don't need to reject who I AM (sparkly, fun, love to dance, squirrels! on a lot of things, laughs at "nothing", etc) because OTHERS have rejected me! So I saw a bunny outside my window this morning. And I told myself we are sitting and STARING at that bunny and ENJOYING this moment! Because that is what I WANTED to do. Anyway, I just wanted to share because I truly am transmuting energy and I am SO grateful!! And now I'm downstairs doing my morning routine, playing music, LETTING myself dance to the music and be happy EVEN THOUGH not everything is "figured out" or "fixed" I really am learning how to cultivate and PROTECT my own energy and separate it from every THING and every BODY else. Love you guys!!

I'm continuing my morning routine. Ooh! I just had something come to me!! "We don't need to get the trauma on board for us to move forward. We just need to get the traumatized parts on board" In other words, we don't NEED resolution or an apology or reconciliation, in order to move forward. But we DO need to make sure we bring those pieces of ourselves. These might be uphill days. But as long as we keep climbing, we are winning 🥰 Love you guys!

So woke up with intrusive thoughts. And I really didn't want to do a meditation. BUT! I DID do something about it. I did some tapping.. and I FELT a difference. Did a bit more tapping.. FELT more of a difference. And then I got this epiphany: Thoughts are like subscriptions. I literally got this vision of back in the old days haha where say you subscribed to a magazine and every month it came. And one day you didnt. But the magazine company doesn't want to lose your business. So they knock on your door (intrusive thoughts enter your mind). It makes SENSE they're doing that, because you USED to "subscribe" to that thought. So my point is, when the knock happens, you now have a choice. Do you CHOOSE to continue to subscribe to this thought? Or do you CHOOSE to do something different? And I'm not even saying you have to on your own willpower come up with another thought. I'm saying, use a tool. Do SOMETHING to CHANGE the thought. At least for me, it literally helped turn my day around at 7 am, from bed, so I'm grateful and wanted to share. Love you guys! Cancel those "subscriptions" 😁🥰

I don't fit in. I just DON'T. Not because I literally CAN'T. But because I don't have that base stability of a "family". I'm still grieving that because what human wouldn't? But that being said, I still have WORTH. I still have VALUE. I still BELONG on this Earth. And YOU do, too. I want to BE part of the change. Not worried about changing the system. But learning how to ENJOY life more. Not pretend to enjoy. Not "enjoy" in the way we are "supposed to". No. Truly ENJOY. Truly feel SUPPORTED. Find MY people. Anyway, I realized the best chance I have of doing that is to embrace myself. Yes, I struggle with intrusive thoughts Yes, I deal with a LOT of uncertainty in my life daily Yes, the odds are stacked against me. But you know what? I can STILL contribute. From home. And today's session is a symbol of that for me. Love you guys!

At 9 am CST (so about an hour from the time I'm posting this), I am doing a ZOOM here! It is my way of trying to provide the support etc that I would love to have! It is a body doubling session, and all that means is if you WANT to, bring something to work on during that time. I am going to bring mail to go through. I will set a timer for say 20 minutes to focus on that "thing", then we can talk and celebrate the progress we made and troubleshoot anything we struggled with :) Love you guys!