What failure to define success means + hold me accountable, pls :)

Aug '22 (edited) in Other

I'm reading a book called "12 Rules for Life," by Jordan Peterson, and there was a paragraph that really stood out:

"Why refuse to specify? Because while you are failing to define success (and thereby rendering it impossible) you are also refusing to define failure, to yourself, so that if and when you fail you won't notice, and it won't hurt. But that won't work! You cannot be fooled so easily - unless you have gone very far down the road! You will instead carry with you a continual sense of disappointment in your own Being and the self-contempt that comes along with that..."

I felt called out; and that's exactly what I needed. About a month ago, I wrote a list of promises to myself, and there was one that - instead of saying "I promise to do _____" - said, "I promise to try to _____" because I knew I wouldn't do it and didn't want to feel disappointed in myself.

So, I guess I need some accountability :') Some things I'm going to do today:

Clean my apartment (lol... it's not that messy, but I think better and am more productive in a totally clean/clutter-free space)
Record myself painting - even if I don't post it or have anything valuable to say.
Text back 1 of 201838 people I've been avoiding (seems small but it'll be the hardest thing I do this month, and I don't even wanna include it in the list)
Define & refine boundaries/availability for work

That said, I haven't recorded myself painting while talking about ______ yet. But I did summarize/synthesize another Huberman podcast called "How to Focus to Change Your Brain," and will be sharing it later (today?) once I finish/edit/SHORTEN (ffs, Anessa) it.

Also, not related to synthesizing stuff (so, sorry if I shouldn't share this here), but I've been uploading 1 singing video per day, for the past week, and I'm finally getting comfortable with it. I still only have like 37 followers. But, 2 days ago, I had like 27. And I got some really sweet comments & 70+ likes in a day :) I'm not doing it for the likes/comments, but I do have a goal of singing with Alec Benjamin hahaha, so it does help. Also, it's proof that consistency and... there's this word I'm thinking of; it means quantity/mass/amount. Oh, my gosh, this is gonna kill me. In essence, more = good.

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