So, I did a thing. I signed up for therapy to deal with some issues I have around feeling inadequate, starting a business in the tech world. Well, I did a therapy session, which was a pre-session with AI. I found it incredibly helpful it was an AI session, and it was like WOW. I hope my real session with a human is this helpful. Well then, today, the 12th day of the activity came up, and I decided to journal. I'm 53 years old, still feeling like I'm unready for the world, a motherless child, but I plan on licking this feeling because I also know that I am qualified, I've done the work, and I've trodden the road, so I can do this. I deserve a seat at the table. Today's quick, fast no edit journaling was like wow did that just come out of my mouth lol I may have a little confidence hiding in there, lol. I was raised to keep my head down, be invisible, and definitely never toot my own horn. But I'm learning in this world that if I don't toot my own horn, nobody will see me, and I plan on being visible, people-facing, and on top, no holds barred. I plan on hitting my stride and keeping it on the road from this point on. I look at famous actors who didn't hit their stardom until late in life, like Morgan Freeman and others, and say it's possible.

I believe I missed a day, but I'm picking up where I left off. So today I created a journal post and a picture of my dreams for the future for myself and my family. I don't want to share with them because I don't want negative nelly energy raining on my dream state. I want the best for us all, and whether anyone believes in its possibility is irrelevant. It will come to be.

I keep forgetting to post when I do the day. Anywho this is my spot where I work and create. It is in the garage but I love it here’s They forget or are completely unaware of my presence and I am left alone for hours in here lol.

So I’ve been using my creative space to create materials for my business. It feels good because I’ve been iterating my ai to give me art for Infograph and posts for my business. I’ve really found a way to stand apart I believe. In this I’ve been painting and relaxing into opening my mind and answers have been flowing. I’m not forcing anything it’s just happening. I literally stop thinking about work and paint. But more answers come from not thinking about it. Weird right! I’ve come up with an entire concept and feel and brand for my business just by painting. I attached one of my infographics so yall can see

I forgot to post yesterday. I jammed to Hustlin Hustin Hustlin by Rick Ross. I was thinking about baby steps I’m taking in building a business and got hype dancing and bopping. I felt the blood flow and my joints felt lubricated and less stiff afterwards.