You saw through all illusions, but unfortunately your purpose, your values, your mission, your sources of happiness, your morals, your norms were all illusions as well. You are staring into the vast nothingness of the universe, and everything that gave you the approval to live your life just vanished. “Nihilism is not the end station but a necessary step that needs to be overcome.” When all given concepts are taken away, you feel naked. Being naked in a disguised society feels odd. You feel like something was taken from you. BUT THE ONLY THINGS THAT WERE TAKEN FROM YOU WERE THE ILLUSIONS YOU WERE ONCE GIVEN NOTHING REAL WAS BEING TAKEN FROM YOU You feel depressed because you are attached to these false illusions, these mind-made concepts of the world. They are not real. You remain pure. The kingdom of heaven was always there. But it can only be entered as a child. You have always been the light you were searching. Now you just burned down all the veils to actually become aware of that fact. I love you.

so my mind always went to the worst possible conclusions but ever since a young age i used to be really scared of the idea of being max tortured but i had relief that ill die probably without experiencing it, but now that i think reincarnation and infinite lifetimes exist i cant help but worry about the possibility that its impossible to avoid max torture because we never truly die and eventually itll come. is there any advice that can help that worry or do i just try to ignore it everytime the thought pops up