When you wake up to your true nature,you do not flee into a concept of heaven or awakening. You embody it in this world. You become who you actually are. You grow out of yourself, just as everything in existence does.From the smallest cell, to every seed, to the universe itself,everything grows out of itself. So unfold your being. Be the authentic expression of this eternal unity. Be a child agin. Be natural again. Be you again. Give birth to your higher and real nature.

I am at a point where I am realizing more about how my mind is… the patterns, the views, the beliefs, the contradictions. Sometimes I just feel like I don’t even have an identity because I question everything and feel so disconnected from others or the status quo. I struggle to just BE and as I exist now, am just overwhelmed by constant analysis, investigation, contradiction, endless loopholes, occasional awakening but often impending dread that the thoughts and loopholes with be back soon to have a chat… I feel really tired and don’t know… I feel like screaming right now, just what the fuck.

So for a lil context , i might be a lot stupid and ask such stupid question forgive me ,so im 20 yrs old and i came to know about spirituality and then got a lot involved thru a guy i used to date ,thay went really horrible for me ,evrytime as i used to save my relationship when it was falling apart he would constantly say its just your ego , u do not want this, but clearly since long the one thing i craved for and wished to hve was a loving genuine partner and have a small family with them, but is that my ego? Shld i not crave for it?is it wrong? I mean most of the spirituality guru s who i used to follow were telling evrything is about ego and ull gain ntg from it .. which i kinda agree.. but can anyone explain me. Is wishing for a spouse really is a bad thing? And since im young i thought this new year will bring me a lot of productive side of me since last year drained me in evry way possible this new year i would work physically, mentally,spiritually and also start a heavy grind for my career ,i mean since breakup i hve been reaching very good heights in my career, is this all ego too?