I know I shouldn't share something so personal like this, but I think I do want to express myself finally. It's a lot to handle alone while I have so many goals. 😔 I don't wanna play victim or weak because I'm strong, but this thing breaks me each time. It's related toy family. One of the video of rey where he was talking about manifesting love partner or something, in that video he was talking about how our environment effect our reality, like if your parents are loving then you experience love and if not then it's get difficult (I'm sorry my words are not clear 🙆🏽‍♀️🙇🏽‍♀️ So basically this thing is same in my family, my father, very strict, dominant, discriminate women and follow society lke they pay for his bills And my mother is shadow of my father, she is kind but cruel at the same time 😥 I'm a student nd I'm a daughter their behaviour towards my brother is way different then towards me. Everyone order's me around to do stuff, they basically force me to do everything, I'm not lying, legit everything by their slang "once you'll get married you'll have to do all these" I can even refuse otherwise they manipulate me My brother is way Older then me, his marriage is next year while I'm a student and yet my father is saying he'll decide my brothers marriage and then the very next year they'll decide mine too?? First a fall I'm already facing discrimination, manipulation, inequality, toxicity, patriarchal, and all the bad things in my house. Yet I do follow my spiritual path with strong conviction with believe that I have to become a teacher, I want to get a good job, I want to move out, i want to find my love on my own and will marry someday happily. But my family perspective towards this is different, they are ruining my mental health 🥹🥺 constant discrimination and expectations, constant marriage talk and all of these society wrong standards. It's all ruining my peace. I try to avoid their talk, I do help around and avoid overthinking, but it's not helping 🥺 i always get sad and effected when they talk about marriages and planning. I don't want to hate them, but I do.

Had an argument with my best friend yesterday. I commented on something spontaneously, that probably I should not. But he did a full scale personal attack in reply. I felt off yesterday but it was brewing so deep, there was no point to address this yet. Woken up this morning and I felt that my ego had really shook at the foundation: on the surface and deep down. I know that it was cause by my friend attacking the part of my ego I like and that the attachment to this caused the pain. I tried to work on it the entire morning, all the techniques etc, being present, meditation, trying to let go, then trying to focus on it, intensyfikacji the feeling, trying to dissolve it. It was very uncomfortable having this feeling in me. Then I just stopped fighting it and I left it alone. A few hours later it dissolved and almost passed on its own. My question is: how do you deal with situations like this. Is it better to try to use techniques to deal with it or let it sit and it may resolve itself? Or thing like this, unresolved will just sink deeper into unconscious and do some dirty work?

Hey all. I just watched 'stopped worrying about other people' and the key takeaway I got was just to keep moving our energy up away from our lower nature. I am coming out of a place of forgetting. I've been in certainty before and life flowed so beautifully. I'm pulling myself up again but i have to admit I am tending to blame myself for the forgetting even though I know that can be the cycle for a while until we let go of the outside forces of the swing of the pendulum that Reality Transurfing (and Rey of course...thank you Rey!!) speaks of).