Let go and love? · Spiritual Rebels

Let go and love?

I attach to people and things. I become emotionally invested, have fears about being without them and not feeling whole. I am grieving a relationship. We still live together right now which is needed for my financial safety. We lived together as girlfriend and boyfriend for about a year. I keep walking in on him watching porn and he has been speaking to me very condescending and in degrading ways. He used to do this when we were together too. I have really had a lot of love for him even when I’ve had to place really strong boundaries or when I fought in the relationship to express to him how the way he was treating me was hurting me. He just totally disconnects, is passive aggressive and very disruptive, stomping, making noise, ignoring and making co-habituating difficult.

I am looking for some perspective to help me let go but also help me cultivate compassion for him and a broader understanding. Something that can really open my heart to just let him be and be truly warm towards myself and him right now. I feel deeply that perspective could help me find peace.

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