Free will, do we have it? A little bit? On micro level? Marco level? At all? Can our free will change our life on a big scale?

I would love to hear about everyone's spiritual adventures, nothing too personal - I know spiritual encounters are to be kept close to one's vest - but any kind of hint would be great. I have only seen boring material reality, so far, and am as impatient as a kitten to go on adventure time with the Divine. What to expect? Can I fulfill my dream of turning into a 90 foot fluffy kitty and hugging people in that form? Can we help others on these adventures? Thank you for indulging ♥ (art by: Cat-Eyes of the Storm By Mink-tDR @ Deviantart website)

Had an argument with my best friend yesterday. I commented on something spontaneously, that probably I should not. But he did a full scale personal attack in reply. I felt off yesterday but it was brewing so deep, there was no point to address this yet. Woken up this morning and I felt that my ego had really shook at the foundation: on the surface and deep down. I know that it was cause by my friend attacking the part of my ego I like and that the attachment to this caused the pain. I tried to work on it the entire morning, all the techniques etc, being present, meditation, trying to let go, then trying to focus on it, intensyfikacji the feeling, trying to dissolve it. It was very uncomfortable having this feeling in me. Then I just stopped fighting it and I left it alone. A few hours later it dissolved and almost passed on its own. My question is: how do you deal with situations like this. Is it better to try to use techniques to deal with it or let it sit and it may resolve itself? Or thing like this, unresolved will just sink deeper into unconscious and do some dirty work?