My • Version Zero • Project 🎮

My breakthrough story is one that starts and stops, sometimes regresses, yet I’ve always been certain that I would eventually meet the future version of myself — even if I wasn’t sure when I would finally succeed.

Since childhood, my awareness has always been high, and I could never make sense of the negativity, toxic energy, and destruction created by the people around me. While I lived with a rose garden inside me, the outer world felt like a desert. Always a sense of lack, always a problem… It felt like a software glitch, and I was searching for ways to fix it.

I’m 33 now, and throughout my life I tried to transform the people I welcomed into my world — without judging, belittling, or excluding them. I held them close. Yet many of them dug their thorns and claws into me, as if to remind me to invest in myself, not in the outside world. I went through very heavy traumas because I was exposed to psychological and physical violence in high school. I wasn’t even aware that I was popular, smart, or beautiful, because my mind was always focused on winning people over and transforming them. I tried to change even their dark hearts, not realizing that in the process I was sacrificing myself.

I stepped into the matrix with my art and ideas to inspire the world — I realized this during my university years. But being a people-pleaser kept me from fulfilling my true purpose. Love, I now understand, is not drifting away from yourself for someone else, but becoming even more free with that person.

I finally learned that transformation and change must arise from within a person and depend on their potential. And last week, I stopped waiting for people to change.

The optimistic curtain that made me project everyone into some “potential version” finally lifted from my eyes. Now the only person I project, build, and design is myself. I even named it “Version Zero.” It’s a journey from essence to soul, from the moment I was born, to my childhood, to my transformation into a young woman. But it unfolds outside of linear time — a reverse transformation, a method of purity, innocence, and cleansing. Like erasing the matrix’s programming backwards.

What am I doing for myself these days? I started eating healthy and working out, and I cut ties — without resentment — with people who harmed me. And within a single week, I have risen tremendously on a mental, spiritual, and physical level. I want to share this journey on my social media like a blog and let my transformation story inspire those around me. When the time is right, I will gain momentum.

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