Hey, I don’t know why I am writing this here, but maybe some will relate. It’s not a cry for help, it’s not me feeling helpless and powerless anymore. After all, this is a game we all are tested in constantly. And I know it is working out for me. I allow it this time to take me where I am most scared of: towards my real power. I might seem delusional. And maybe I am. But it’s the only way now. I refuse any other way. I am no longer repeating what all my ancestors kept repeating. I recently completely outgrown the Netherlands. What brought me there was mere survival and the illusion of love, distorted love. I have projected. I felt called these days back to Spain. Didn’t fully understand why. But it has become extremely clear that the land called me to release what poisoned me. I am again sovereign in my own body. Really releasing the suffering, and transitioning to my highest timeline. It’s not just words, it’s integration and embodiment. I am ready even though I am extremely scared, EXTREMELY SCARED. Today, I received and email from the employer I am working for on the island (small isolated island in the Netherlands, how symbolic. Have been in the void there). They fired me and others through email. They fired me, even though I am on so-called holiday, even though they reassured me before that there will be work for me during winter too. They want to save money, it’s a long story, they don’t care about the employees. I didn’t even get my last month’s tips :)) It’s a very heavy place to work in, energetically. Negativity, addiction, chaotic overall. And it’s symbolic that I ended up there, after ending a relationship before I even allowed it to evolve. I chose instability again over stability at the cost of losing myself and ditch God’s highest plan for me. Then the workplace I chose under pressure was like a test: is this what you want? Is this what love is to you? Because my idea of love and home has been distorted in general, I was born in chaos after all.

I’ve been feeling something REALLY intense these last 3 days…like a deep, ancient anxiety coming from the collective.This pressure from the programmed timelines. For YEARS I lived inside a strict routine:wake up at 5 or 7 AM,breakfast between 7–9,work from 10–16,gym, eat, sleep, repeat. And yesterday… my mind felt like it was collapsing under it.A massive tiredness. A “wtf is happening” kind of tiredness. And then it hit me: This timeline isn’t natural. It's programmed. Our ancestors didn’t live like this. There was no “weekend”. No “Monday”. No 24-hour artificial clock imposed on the soul. They lived connected to EARTH, to the moon, the planets, the stars, to seasons, cycles, energy, intuition. To their internal compass — not a digital one. They didn’t wake up thinking, “Oh damn, it’s Monday.” They woke up thinking: “What is nature asking of me today?” And honestly… this whole January-to-December, Monday-to-Sunday, 24/7 timelinefeels like bullshit to me right now. Something inside me snapped. I’m like: Fuck it. I’m done letting a clock tell me who to be. I’m done living in a system that disconnects me from myself. I want to live intuitively. I want to move from my heart. I want to create when creation is alive in me. Rest when my body whispers. Follow the frequency of the earth — not the agenda of the matrix. No more “Monday to Friday” energy. Just soul timing. Natural rhythm. Earth-led creativity. And honestly… I’m curious to see what happens when I stop obeying time and start obeying my inner truth.

I am really curious if anyone has got any connections in Girona (especially), or even Italy? I feel called to relocate and spend my time in one of those places for a while, for my transition process to be smooth rather than shocking to my nervous system. ⭐️Also open to other places, those two do not have to be it. Though they feel like a match for me at this point in time. 😉But not any place. Geography and the frequency compatibility play a huge role in how someone thrives. So I would have to feel into the place first. And I would love to work in the tourism sector there, for the time that I will stay - as long as the the employers and team are good and fair people (not performing goodness when it fits them, not doing distorted things in the background and to their employees). I actually absolutely love to work with people from all over the world, different backgrounds etc. My previous jobs in a few places in Europe and UK involved a lot of that, plus just travelling and wondering around. Currently I am being offered a different job on another Wadden island, but honestly I feel called to leave the Netherlands all together. Not necessarily right this moment, but sooner rather than later. I was supposed to fly from Spain back to the Netherlands, but my whole body was doing everything possible to slow me down. I fell asleep two hours before the flight, showed up at the gate literally one minute before it closed, and was even low-key hoping the flight would get cancelled—my body was clinging to Spain like, nope, not yet. But deep down I knew the trip wasn’t about staying there. It was about closing a chapter that had shaped me in a huge, karmic way. I met this person in Spain for the first time, and on this trip I finally felt the cord loosen for good—my energy returning to me, clean and unmistakable. And the universe… absolutely wouldn’t stop being obvious about it. I joined two community Zoom calls here and both were about breakups and tricky relationship dynamics. Like… really? Even SKOOL was like, “Hey, don’t forget what you’re releasing.” 😂

I have been connecting once againg at the nigths sleeping with some very heavy fears from the collective about the Extreme Rains.... I have been having nigthmares about huge rains destroing everything, families, cars, parks, people stuck in cars drowing, big rain rivers etc.... I never look the tv, I DON'T even have TV 😆 So I have no idea what is happening at the world, I refuse to see the notices beacouse they just makes us be more afraid. So yeah, I feel these extreme rains are now a big thing as I have been having many dreams about it. Does someone feel the same?

This is a curiosity I have, it’s mainly a question for the creators with a higher active following online. I want to plant the seed of a deeper discussion that birthed inside of me (I think since very, very long ago). But I am absolutely sure that I am not the only one thinking about these things, I am sure there’s many more even actively talking and maybe taking action too when it comes to it. I just want to open a discussion and also see where it goes. This can be beyond this post. And I hope it will. Does not necessarily have to involve me. I am just starting it here. And this is not about fear or anything like that. So, for those with a bigger following: Do you feel scared? And if not, do you think that they would just let everyone do their thing online because they rely on most people seeing us as crazy? I mean literally. Mentally disturbed people. Just conspiracy theorists. People who completely lost touch with reality. Basically projecting onto us exactly what they are doing. I know for sure that we are more powerful than all that, and that the world we know as of today won’t be the same, it will be truly heaven one day. But I don’t know when. I also know that we have the power and ability to collectively collapse timelines. But then I also have to acknowledge the reality that I see. The world is quite split. There’s many people who are finding themselves in between. The reality that the ones like us are completely insane seems easier to accept, the unknown does not feel safe. Therefore this immense projection that we lost our way. What is known, yet draining (everyone wants to escape in a way or another) - feels more safe. How is it to know that lots of people are scared most by what will actually set them free? I personally do not wish history to repeat itself. I want to talk openly about these things. Expose our fears and possible chaotic outcomes, chaotic future for a long, long while. I think that is the start of us completely shifting that reality. Of making it safe enough for others to remember the actual truth, to not fear and live in complacency.