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Inner healing workbook

Doing this workbook is much harder than anticipated 😭. My anxiety is actively working against me and telling me to run away. I have two pages to go, biidhnillah, and have been taking breaks when I could not continue anymore. Last night I also had a long talk with my mom, subhanAllah, and it opened my eyes to numerous things about me and made me forcibly face things I have been scared to face because she hit me with reality. It made starting the workbook and answering the questions much easier than they would have been had I not accepted these things yesterday. SubhanAllah, Allah's timing is always perfect. It also made me realise that my mom knows me like the back of her hand and I need to stop being hard headed and listen to her advice. What about you, girlies? Have you completed the workbook? And how was the experience? I pray it was easy on you all🫶

I wanted to share my answer to one of the prompts in the workbook, which is the exercise on future vision:

My relationship with Allah does not become a burden. My daily routine is going as planned and lightly.I am not overwhelmed and harbouring feelings inside me that I have been avoiding. My anxiety is not running in the background continuously like a RAM. I am living in the moment and appreciating Allah's blessings and persevering through the trials without it throwing me into a spiral that messes up my whole life, daily schedule, emotional and mental health, progress, continuity, motivation and productivity. I deal with things when they come up right then and there appropriately in a healthy manner and do not procrastinate or run away from my fears and feelings, then continue my life in a state of tranquillity. I do not unleash my unresolved issues on my loved ones and treat them lovingly, respectfully and with dignity. My productivity and anxiety are in check and not in the ICU every time a minor inconvenience happens. I give every feeling its correct amount of relevance and know when to react and when not to, when to respond, and when not to. I learn from my life circumstances and lessons, good and bad and apply what is learned over time building up my character. I make sure to check in with Allah at the end of the day and do my brain dump there because that is the only truly judgment-free zone where I can be totally vulnerable to him, and he meets me as I am, without needing any effort to explain and elaborate if I am unable to because he is closer to me than my jugular vein. I then feel lighter, and my heart is content and soaring after my conversation with Allah, and I have the best sleep ever, which resets my whole system for the next day.

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