It’s an interesting thing Trust … it’s something that can only be gained by giving it … it is gained through credibility + reliability +intimacy ( not the physical kind ) and it is steered by self orientation. If we don’t know who we are and what we stand for , what we value and believe….trust is hard to find … because if we don’t inherently trust ourselves, how can we find it in others? I spent years not trusting myself … chipping away at my self esteem and doubting my abilities… until one day I just got so sick of the voice in my head that constantly tore shreds off my self worth that my deepest inner soul couldn’t take it any more. I was a hypocrite, teaching my students about self esteem and self worth and allowing myself to take the constant beating that voice in my head kept dishing out… for so long I stopped listening to the deep and quiet voice of my soul that would rise up and defend me from all the noise, I didn’t trust it … why ? Experience has dealt me cards that at the time I believed asked me to stay quiet, not to listen to that authentic and courageous energy inside because that was not acceptable … society told me no, that part of me doesn’t belong here , that strength in me wasn’t good enough, who do you think you are ? So for a long time I ignored it and tried to be who people expected me to be , I lost trust in the deep soulful voice within. And then , the world whom I had built my trust in , collapsed, everything that I had ever done to meet those expectations meant nothing. I only had myself , and I had to dig myself out of the hole that I had allowed myself to be put in, and it forced me to get out of my head and I to my body , when I reconnected with my body I began to hear my soul speaking , and I have never looked back, and never felt better , never had a better relationship with myself or those around me . When I stood up for what I believed in because I trusted a myself , the world I was living in crumbled and opened the door to something so much better . A place where I can now be exactly who I am and trust myself and those around me.