Dear Human, I know. You thought I was loneliness wearing beige. Unfortunate branding on my part. Every time I arrive, people panic.They grab their phones. Open six apps. Text someone they absolutely should not text. Suddenly they “miss” a person who gave them anxiety, confusion, and lower back pain. Classic. But I need you to understand something: I did not come into your life to punish you. I came to introduce you to yourself. I’m the quiet after the chaos. The space where your thoughts stop fighting for microphone time. The moment you realize half your exhaustion came from performing versions of yourself for people who barely knew you. I know I feel uncomfortable at first. When we first meet, you call me: “boredom” “emptiness” “why is it so quiet in here?” and occasionally: “maybe I should get bangs.” Please resist the last one. Stay with me long enough and I’ll show you things: ✨ what peace actually feels like ✨ how to enjoy your own energy ✨ which relationships drain your spirit like expired phone chargers ✨ and how much of your life was built around avoiding yourself People think confidence comes from attention. It doesn’t. Confidence is eating alone without feeling like a rejected side character. Traveling alone without narrating your existence for validation. Sitting in silence without needing constant stimulation like an emotionally caffeinated squirrel. Remember: Your external reality shifts when your internal state shifts. Well… I’m one of the backstage crew members helping with that transformation. I help you stop choosing people out of fear. I help you hear your intuition again. I help your nervous system unclench like a fist that forgot it was safe. And eventually something beautiful happens: You stop asking: “Who will stay with me?” Because now your energy says: “I already enjoy being here. We are enough. We choose on purpose, not in need.” That’s when love changes. You stop chasing. Stop settling. Stop treating breadcrumbs like a spiritual sign from the universe.

A trigger is a notification: Similar to the red dot notification on our feed, the trigger remains until we begin to acknowledge and read it. We have several choices: 1. Ignore 2. Distract ourselves (with socializing/avoiding, TV., doom scrolling, substances, etc.) 3. Read, acknowledge, and process it 4. Blame the messenger and give them the power over our emotion The emotional reaction/response we feel as a result of a person's actions or behavior are showing us the crack... The crack is where the pain from the past seeped in that made us feel a certain way. This often resulted from a 'conditional' love response, from a parental figure, that was not consistent with our desire and need. And so the subconscious loop begins... as our inner child continued to attempt to seek and receive the the desire or need. This invites similar characters, in different suits, into our lives to continue to play out that script. As we become more conscious/aware of the root, it can ignite a dark night of the soul. The initial cracking of that protective barrier is uncomfortable. This can sometimes feel, in the moment, even more painful than the ignorance. Substantial change can be, at the very least, 'uncomfortable,' because it is 'unfamiliar.' The ego may desire to cling to what we know, what is predictable, and what we believe to be true. This may cause one to retreat, and yet, it's practically impossible to go back to 'sleep' after we're 'awake.' The choice is ours to lean into that pain and truth.... Evolve or repeat. This can come with grief, for who you have been, who others' in your life have or haven't been to you in relation to the shadow. It may require a tremendous amount of forgiveness within ourselves. It calls us to give ourselves the unconditional love that may not have been modeled, received, or desired. The truth is, we have choices on what we invite, tolerate, and allow. That 'work' of acknowledging, feeling, releasing, and re-patterning takes effort, support, and a whole lot of grace and self-compassion.