I've been doing a lot of work in this area lately. In meditation I have gone back to try and discover why I didn't get it growing up. Now I see it.
But as an adult, I still feel like I need validation for doing what I want to do, putting effort into the things I feel are important, and even with the relationships I decide to build. Self doubt seems to creep in and make me question things.
So that was my first area of attack: self esteem & self worth. I have built some. I'm not where I want to be YET but I will keep going. That still leaves the validation, just hanging out there...
Two nights ago I asked the universe to help me understand validation and how it works in my life.
When I woke up, I had an answer. It was as bright and shiny in my mind as a brand new sunrise, and it went like this: "The validation you're seeking from the outside world does not exist. The only validation that is real is the validation that you give yourself. That is the only type of validation that matters."
And that was a relief to come to that understanding. Honestly, it made me realize on a deeper level that the work that I choose to do is the validation. The people that I choose to have in my life are the validation. The way that I choose to be and respond to life is my validation.