❤️ It’s Been A While… How Is Everyone Doing?

Hi Warriors ❤️

It’s been quite a while since I’ve posted, and I wanted to check in with everyone.

As many of you know, I’ve been going through an incredibly difficult time following the loss of my mum. She was my best friend and the inspiration behind this community.

I’ve needed some time to process everything and focus on my family.

There are still many unanswered questions surrounding her final hospital admission. I’ve requested access to her medical records and am currently waiting for them. Unfortunately, progress has been slow, and it feels as though things became more defensive once concerns about potential clinical negligence were raised.

At the moment, I’m trying to understand exactly what happened. There are several aspects of her care that I still struggle to reconcile, including concerns about severe COVID pneumonitis that appeared to be dismissed, decisions made during her admission, and the rapid decline that followed. My hope is that obtaining the records will provide some clarity and answers.

Sometimes I find myself wondering “what if?” and wishing we had been given more time. Everything happened so quickly, and we never even had the opportunity to try the new protocol from Astron Health that we had been exploring.

Since losing my mum, I’ve found myself replaying everything over and over in my head. Wondering if there was something else I could have tried, another question I could have asked, another avenue I could have explored.

But if I’m completely honest, my biggest regret isn’t a treatment, a protocol, or a therapy that we didn’t try.

My biggest regret is not showing her more love.

I was so focused on finding answers. So focused on finding a cure so that she could live. I spent countless hours researching, reading studies, analysing scans, tracking symptoms, and learning everything I possibly could. Every day felt like a race against time.

I was constantly thinking about the next step, the next blood test, the next scan, the next treatment, the next possibility.

Looking back, I realise that in my desperation to save her, I sometimes forgot what truly mattered most: simply being present and showing her how much I loved her.

I loved my mum more than words can express. She was my best friend, my inspiration, and the reason this community exists. I just wish I had shown it more often instead of being so consumed by symptoms, appointments, progression reports, fear, and the constant feeling that the clock was ticking.

Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I had worried less and loved more. If I had spent less time trying to control the future and more time appreciating the moments we still had together.

It’s a painful lesson, and one I will carry with me forever.

If there’s one thing this experience has taught me, it’s that while we should absolutely fight, research, learn, and do everything we can for the people we love, we should never forget to tell them we love them, spend time with them, hug them, laugh with them, and create memories while we still can.

Sometimes I still find myself wondering “what if?” and I suspect I always will.

Despite everything, I remain committed to the mission that started this community: sharing knowledge, learning from one another, and helping people make informed decisions about their health.

So I’d love to hear from all of you:

✅ How have you been?

✅ What treatments, therapies, supplements, medications, diets, or protocols are you currently pursuing?

✅ Have you experienced any positive results?

✅ Any side effects, challenges, or lessons learned?

✅ Is there anything new that you’re excited about or looking into?

Whether you’re a patient, caregiver, survivor, or simply here to learn, I’d love to hear where you are in your journey.

This community has always been strongest when we learn from each other.

Looking forward to catching up with everyone ❤️

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