Trying to catch up before Monday😅...

...Which hits a bit harder than it used to now that I've been learning that I feel behind in my own life.

Also, I don't like feeling exposed or sharing but I figured I'd challenge myself to be brave and at least share the snippets my assessment provided me as I answered each of the five sets of three questions:

"1) Just started the ADHD Awakening Assessment and already realized something wild: my "I can't get started" problem isn't about laziness. It's that I learned somewhere that if I'm not already great at something, I shouldn't be doing it at all. Even things I love. That voice has been running the show for years and I never named it until now.

2) Section 2 of the Awakening Assessment just showed me that the four roles I play (perfectionist, people pleaser, control freak, and the invisible one) aren't my personality. They're guards I built to protect a creative kid who loved to sing, write poems, and live inside her imagination. Turns out my "authentic self" isn't someone I need to become. She's someone I already was.

3) Just realized the voice in my head telling me I'm "just lazy" isn't even mine - it's an inherited script. And the kicker? I already have evidence against it. I cook meals for my future self. I record myself singing and it sounds good. Turns out the story I've been believing doesn't match the receipts.

4) The mirror principle just clicked. My overflowing inbox isn't a productivity issue - it's the exact same futility I feel about my emotions, my music, my whole life. More keeps coming in than I can process. Turns out the question underneath all of it is the same one: will I ever catch up to my own life?

5) Just completed all 5 sections of the Awakening Assessment, and I realized my "ideal day" wasn't really about performing - it was about finally being told I was "good enough to be there." Turns out I've been measuring my impact by whether other people take my advice, instead of by what I actually offered. Wild what 15 questions can surface"

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I missed the final pieces of the previous challenge so I'm glad I got to properly see days 4 & 5 this time and learn better how the complete picture of me comes together. I'm going to do my best to attend live on day 6 because this whole challenge has been really emotional, but very eye-opening and guiding. Thanks Jim😊

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