I love a good movie. And also tryna watch something I can learn from or that makes me ponder deeply. Whatcha got?

As for me - For someone my age, I honestly prefer calm over chaotic parties. Most 25-year-olds seem to love the whole loud-music, sweating-in-a-crowd scene, but I had my party phase early in my 20s and it disappeared pretty fast. I did a few… and then I just didn’t get what was so great about it. That’s also when I ended up losing a bunch of “friends,” mainly because I didn’t want to squeeze myself into a room full of people anymore. I used to job-hop like crazy in my early career. Every few months I’d leave and try something else because I kept feeling like there had to be something different out there for me. And yeah, coming from a lower-middle-class family, that wasn’t exactly the safest thing to do, but somehow I still took the risks. I talk about absolute bizarre stuff with people I vibe with. Zero filter. I also prefer dogs over humans… not even joking. I talk to them like they can talk back. I don’t know if they understand a word, but they put their paws on my hand and lean their head on me like they’re trying their best to keep up. People used to call me an old soul when I was a teen. Meanwhile, I’m here trying to become a kid again because I feel like I missed out on so much. And, I don’t relate to most of the people my age at all. My idea of fun is completely different from theirs, and group setting feel like too much happening at once on the most surface level possible. Meanwhile, I can trauma-dump in the most casual tone ever. It doesn’t hurt, but I’ve realised it freaks people out. Back then I’d say “Ah, it’s nothing,” and they’d stare at me like I was an alien. So back then, dating was… interesting. But I do keep wondering how a group conversation would go if it was all of us “weird” people together. It would probably be fun!!!

If I can start small, you can too. No shame, no judgment. Just raw feelings. We need more of that — and more freedom to say whatever we feel, even though it might feel stupid or you feel ashamed. We should lift each other up instead of putting each other down. And I am sure that is possible. Again, I speak from my own experience — I know a word, a smile, or even the smallest thing can change a lot for a person. Let’s have more of that 🙌 I am here to share, to learn, and to explore.

Right now, what are you avoiding? What are you trying to fill externally that could be filled within. In what way are you searching backwards? Meaning, subconsciously trying to fill a void with anything, but your consciousness. God fills the void. God meaning truth. Awareness. The infinite observer beyond this experience. Beyond your thoughts. The quantum field of infinite possibilities. The void. The paradox. “All growth essentially comes from awareness” ——a quote I read in a book but don’t remember who said it. I began meditating 5 years ago. A slow, but steady practice that has rapidly evolved over the years. I could say meditation has saved my life, but that doesn’t feel accurate. More as, meditation showed me who I am and what I am capable of. Over the years, my meditation practice transformed as my capacity for presence increased. The more stored trauma/subconscious blocks/fears——-illusions I’ve faced, the less external structure and guidance I need. My authority comes from within. The infinite now is all that exists and our thoughts are what block us from our true presence——-God. I say God as blanket term for what cannot be described with words, but only with direct experience of remembering/experiencing the vastness of who you are. You are free when you transcend your mind. When you remember who you are beyond illusion. I no longer force myself to meditate in any sort of consistent discipline. I just follow what I feel in this now moment. It’s sort as if I’m always meditating as I maintain the observer state by focusing on my breath/presence. It’s the fastest way to evolve as I am constantly facing my fears/illusions by knowing my breath is the only thing that is real. Meanwhile, I’m able to let go of limiting beliefs or any thoughts that don’t serve me as they arise. Its definitely taken discipline and dedication to get to this point, but honestly everything is easier now as I perceive through neutrality. And awfully silly lol. And frustrating and overwhelming. I still experience life like any normal person, but I don’t allow any excuses to hold onto things that aren’t mine. I let go of it all and feel everything as it arises. I practice non attachment, which allows me to be led by the love in my heart and excitement in my soul.

If someone asked ‘Who are you?’ and you couldn’t mention about your work, where you’re from, or what you do, what would you say? We all have our default introductions. “Hey, I’m [Name], I work at [Company], and I’m from [Place].” But let’s strip all that away. Now tell me, who are you really? Like, really really? I’ll go first: I’m a constant INFJ-A. (Brownie points if you know what that means.) And if you suddenly feel the urge to take a ridiculously detailed personality test after this, well… my influence is stronger than I thought. A Gen Z adult who dramatically sighs “I don't belong here” at least once in a while. High and lost in book after book, while trying to balance my long walks (minimum 7 km), creatine, and remembering to drink water. (I swear, I’m working on it.) I lose track of time talking about the matrix, spirituality, astral projection, Myers-Briggs, dog behavior, decoding serial killers, and childhood traumas. (The order is not important.) For a whole year, I had no phone. Not by choice. Meeting people felt like living in the 90s, setting a time and place and just hoping no one forgot. It changed the way I experienced everything. (That’s a story for another day.) It's been a year of practising Reiki, figuring out how energy moves through us, around us, and ties everything together in ways we don’t always notice but somehow feel. Now it’s your turn. Introduce yourself without the usual labels. I’m listening!