(I translated this from german to english) Before: I’ve always been a sensitive and intuitive child — deeply creative, sometimes wild, sometimes shy. Balance was always vital to me; I needed to feel both worlds. I wanted to belong, to be part of everything — yet I always felt out of place. My childhood was sheltered, peaceful, seemingly perfect. Beneath the surface, though, many things remained hidden until later.Friends say I grew up in a “golden cage.” I’ve always written — poems, dark reflections, words that carried what I couldn’t speak aloud. I had friends and belonged on the outside, but felt a deep distance within. I saw life differently, wanted to rebel, to lead, then suddenly disappear. Around sixteen, I started to openly question “the system” — mostly school back then. Crisis: There were three major turning points over five years — five years that shookeverything. It began when I finished school feeling utterly empty. After a breakup with my teenage partner, I fell into a phase of disconnection, parties, and shallow ties. One night, short of breath, I felt a clear message: If you keep living like this, you’ll get sick.The second disruption came with my next partner — a broken yet magical man. I moved with him eight hours away to the Baltic Sea. With him, I first saw energy move through space; he cracked me open like a stone revealing its diamond. Yet I gave away my power, shrank so he could shine, and lost myself. I became pregnant, ended both the relationship and the pregnancy, and cut all contact. For years he haunted my dreams — until I consciously reclaimed my energy.Still, he had awakened my fire for the unseen, for truth beyond the physical.The third rupture came with the pandemic — a time of exclusion that taught me where I belong and where I don’t. I saw how deeply we’ve been severed from truth and roots. Chase: I began studying my inner world through the mirror of society — observing people, their patterns, their motives. I taught myself everything needed to live freely. Together with my partner, I founded a movement uniting earth connection, love of homeland, and vision for the future. We led workshops, started producing music, completed trainings (Essence Dialogue Coach, Freebirth Mentor), founded a women’s circle, emigrated, bought 5 hectares of land and a small forest home.Later I stopped my women’s coaching — realizing I still wore too many masks — and dove deeper into language, Old High German, and the hidden truths of our cosmos and systems.